anime angst

Crying In The Rain izuocha/dead Deku AU

HIIIII!!! Sad Ururaka? YASSSS!! sorry i only have ideas for mha and haikyuu lol. Imma make ururaka sad because shes poor and this is a dead deku AU so uhm ig shes guilty bc she watched him die and couldnt do anything about it. Bakugo is being mean to her for that so uhm yEah. ALSO deku and ururaka dated or sum bc yes. ALSO remember how I said that I would tell you if this has happened to me? well this happened to me after my grandmother died. so ya

    I was walking to the dorms from class. The day was over. I was over. We were over. I couldn't believe that I just sat there. This was about a month ago, but it never really got to me. Until now. 

    Everyday Bakugo kept insulting me and asking me why I had to let that happen. I just ignored him. I feel... emotionally numb right now. I don't want to speak. I don't want to eat. I don't want to get out of bed. 

But I do. 

    I do it because if Izuku were still here, he would make me everyday. Even though he's not here physically, I can still feel his presence. So I feel like its only right to do what he would make me do. 

    It started raining. I was thinking all these sad things. 

'why did I have to let him die? I just sat there. Even if he did live, I would want to help pay for his hospital bill, but I can't. I don't have enough money...' 

    I stopped in my tracks. I let the rain soak me. "I-I wish... I wish he was still here.." I whispered. I let these water droplets consume me. 

    I feel a small pain in my shoulder. I look up to see Bakugo. I watch as he leaves with a scowl on his face. Everynight we all hear him crying in his room. He has red puffy eyes every morning. Why couldn't I have those feelings? Why am I not crying over his death? Why? WHY? WHY?!

     I look back down and just start crying. I let it all out. All my pain. All my suffering. All my grief. I let it all out. I just stand there and cry. It felt good to let it out, but also heartbreaking. 

I miss my Izu...

SHORT CHAPTERRRR I just woke up from a normal amount of sleep. (3-10:30) but i was tired as hell -3- My tired being need like at least 12 hours of sleep to wake up and feel refreshed. but my insomniac ass could never. (unless my parents are on a buisness trip and I can sleep in however late i want hehe) but that got kinda rare lol. i hope yall enjoyed.