Always on the 13th Hour

20. I Want you Back

I am writing this,
With a blurry vision,
Tears streaming down my face,
It's been about 2 years when you left us in this world,
2 years-
Yet the pain is still here.

I don't know what to do,
The wound you left is good as new.

I want you back,
I really want you back,
If I only knew you'd be gone that day,
I could have hugged you for the last time,
Kissed you as much as I can,
Told you I love you,
And I will do everything just to hear you talk again.

I can't even remember your voice anymore,
I hate myself for not telling you
That you're the best grandmother in the world-
Because you are.

My heart feels empty now,
When I smile, I don't know if it's true.
When I laugh, I don't know if it's real.

Ma, I passed in our dream school,
Last night, I even imagined you
Telling me how much you're proud of me,
I imagined you kissing me on my forehead,
Then telling your friends how smart I am.

I miss you so much,
Ma, are you proud of me?
Can you give me, even just a sign that you're proud and you still love me?

I wish you were here,
Even if you won't give me a reward anymore,
I just want you,
I just want you back.

I love you...