꧁𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯꧂

I wish I was somebody else

Kageyama POV

I haven't been to school in three days I doubt anyone will forgive me I stare at the ceiling wrapped up in my blanket I fucked things up so much maybe I should just run away or something it's not like nobody's going to care

I hear my door open as light from the hallway come into my room

"Tobio you have to go to school today I'm taking no excuses, young man"

I was in no mood to argue I just want to get some help I guess it's good that I recognize that I need help but I know I'm not gonna get it

I get out of bed and put my clothes on brush my teeth you know the usual I don't even bother to eat breakfast ever since the incident I haven't been eating quite as well as I should be I don't even want to go to school I know once I go there they're all gonna look at me and me and they hate me I would too

"Bye mom I'm heading out"
"Bye Tobio"

I'm walking to school as I see the street lamps light feeding away as the sun comes up I wonder if we have practice today what does it matter it's not like I'm going there

I finally make it to school I start walking unknowingly walking towards the gym

"What am I doing I'm not allowed to be there anymore I should just head to class"

Walking away I can hear some voices from around the corner they sound familiar I wonder who they are
It's none of my business I shouldn't pay attention anyway it's probably just a lovers quarrel or something I don't want to get in any more trouble

I tried walking away from the gym but I just couldn't something inside my gut was telling me that I should go check out who's talking behind the gym and see what they're saying

I quietly made sure not to step on any leaves or branches that may have fallen as the voices got closer I decided to peek my head from the corner hoping nobody would see me luckily I don't think so

I saw tuskishima and Hinata I don't want to but in whatever they're talking about after all I'm not angry anymore well sometimes I am but what's the point if I only entered their conversation now they're going to hate me, even more, I'd rather not let that happen after all this is my first year in high school I have two years left and I don't want everyone to hate me for the next two years

"Listen Hinata I'm not going to say this more then once leave me alone"
"Please tuskishima I'm sorry it was never my secret to tell trust me if it was I would tell you immediately but I didn't have any right to"

"I understand that it's the fact that you gave me false hope instead of telling me hey maybe you should just give up if you're so certain that he's going out with her maybe you should just give up or maybe just confessed your feelings already but instead you kept lying to me giving me false hope saying that maybe he does like me"

"I just didn't want to hurt you"
"Well you failed because I'm hurt not just because of you but Yamaguchi and yachi too I need time for myself just let me have that will you"

"Ok..."
"as I said before just leave me alone"

Tuskishima walked away as Hinata sat down in the grass pulling his knees close to his chest while crying

What do I do now he's crying right in front of me I shouldn't ignore it but at the same time what right do I have to try to comfort him after all just a couple of days ago I tried to hit him it's not normal to want to hit your significant other it never will be yeah I know now and even then that action is 100% incorrect the good thing is I at least realize my mistakes and want to get help