꧁𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯꧂

Can I fall in love again

Kaori POV

I hate how I have to get up early for school walking to school while it's rather cold just isn't a good feeling especially after you've cried all night

I cried a lot I know I should grab my tears keep them in my pocket save them for her time when I'm gonna need them but I just can't help but grieve somebody that I thought was my friend somebody that I thought cared about me turns out they don't feel the same way that I do

after all this time I trust them, after all, this time I admire them they just go ahead and drop me like that they go ahead and lie straight to my face it just hurts even though I don't want it to
it's going to hurt and I'm going to have to fix it

"Hey Kaori"
"Oh Hiroto hi"
"Hey what's wrong you seem sad"
"Well me and tuskishima broke up"
"What ok where is he I'm going to give him a little piece of my mind nobody breaks up with my best friend and makes her—"
"Hiroto I was the one who broke up with him"

Hiroto's jaw dropped his eyes looked as if he was in disbelief I know it must be hard to believe especially because sometimes all I would ever do is talk about him for the longest time I've had a crush on him

"yeah I'm the one who broke our relationship and called it quits"

"Ok why"

I don't want to tell him why I don't want to tell him that Tuskishima didn't like me in that way and that he was probably just using me to maybe make himself feel better or to maybe just shut me up for a while

I try my best to act as if I don't care and that I'm not hurting on the inside about what I did about what happened

"Well I found out that I didn't like him in that way and that I was just lying to myself"

"What but how"
"Well I did like him in the beginning but I just kept saying that I did even after I stopped having feelings for him"
"Kaori.."
"Well it's not as if  I liked him so don't feel bad and don't feel mad I mean I found out after all that I don't like him it's better than me continuing to lie to myself"
"Yeah I guess but—"
"I'm ok I swear"

I wish you could listen to me I wish I could tell you that I'm really not OK trust me I'm not OK

"I'm ok I promise so stop worrying"

when I'm not OK I'm not fucking OK

"If you say so Kaori..well let's go and forget about that guy"
"Yeah"

Tuskishima POV

Since yesterday
I found out that I'd like the stupid shrimp of a tangerine I noticed that I find everything he does quite cute it's unsettling, to say the least, I mean honestly, I used to I guess I hate this guy and now I have a big ass crush on him why is this happening how did this happen when did this happen not to say that I don't like it  but like why

"Hey Tuskishima what do you want to eat for breakfast we have time before school starts"

"Let's see maybe some oatmeal or something or peanut butter sandwich with bananas and honey"
" that second option sounds good let's do that"

(this actually sounds good I'm really fucking hungry right now I just want some pancakes man but like I just finished a bag of fucking hot Cheetos so I can't as you can see I'm kind of suffering right now #first world problems)
(Lol but like for real I'm really hungry)

We eat ate food and walk to school in the chilly air the sky up to say hello still so red with hints of purple too

As we enter the gym with the clothes that we wear for practice we sit down on the stage and wait for the others to get there we were there pretty early nobody else was there