Resheph→ Second Love

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When I think about him, my heart still aches

He was my saviour

He came to me at my lowest and raised me to my highest

I was devoted to him
Like a follower to their god
I treasured our time
Like the most beautiful and fragile jewel

I stuck to his side like glue

He found it cute

He too loved me

He was a man of few words
Big, cold, straight-forward, scary
His siblings feared he'd be alone forever

But other women never stopped to look beyond his exterior

Inside, he was kind and considerate
Great memory, active listener, so many hobbies and the patience to teach them
He taught me how to forget
I taught him how to control his temper

Even though we seemed like a strange pair
We were similar

Our scars almost identical
Our need to run away
One in the same

We found solitude in one another

Slowly, my past became the past

He showed me the beauty of the world.

Whenever I think of him
My heart aches

Not because he hurt me

Not because I didn't give my everything

Not because they blame me

Not because I blame myself

My heart aches
Because of the hate inside

The hate for all he taught me to forget
The hate for the darkness we ran away from
The hate for those I blame

My heart aches
For our children

They never met their father
Their father never met them
He tried to stay strong
It was all in vain

I blame them
I will never forgive them

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