Your Ghost

Chapter 48:

Please read the writer's note before continuing with this chapter.

Evelyn:

"Diary,

This is going to be brutal. Very brutal.

I miss Evelyn. Fuck! I miss her so much! If this damn book had feelings...

I cannot believe I miss her this much...

But here's a question: Does Evelyn miss me? I'm serious. Does she even miss me?

I keep seeing Evelyn with other men – well I mostly see her with Ian. I see her walking into a shopping mall with Ian; she is going to a fucking restaurant with Ian and she's even going to a movie cinema with Ian!

That fucking Ian! I keep seeing him with Evelyn wherever she goes.

Is she sleeping with him? Is he looking at her naked body? Her gorgeous sexy body I might add?

Ian always seems to show up where he is not wanted. He is constantly with her, carrying her bags, helping her shop and he's even walking with her when she takes Sheila out walking.

I used to do all those things with Evelyn...

While Evelyn goes around seeing other men, here I am...alone...writing in this fucking diary about how much I miss Evelyn.

Well I mean I can fuck any woman I want. Heck! I have one woman upstairs right now, but it's no use trying to make out with this woman. She's not Evelyn. She's just some stranger who looks like Evelyn.

Fuck! None of these women fill the void. None. Zip.

As much as these women appear to look like Evelyn...THEY ARE NOT EVELYN!

Dammit! Why did I have to fall for Evelyn? JUST WHY?

Oh that's right! She was not like any other women I've ever met in my life! She was actually smart and beautiful...so fucking beautiful...

Luckily I left my mark – or a few marks I should write – all over her body.

I wonder what Ian will think when he sees the love bites I left on Evelyn. I left so many!

In fact, no other man would find Evelyn attractive after they discover all those love bites on her body. The men will realize that she belongs to one man and one man only...ME!

Fuck! As I am writing I am thinking about Evelyn! About her body...her lips...her breasts...her ass...her – okay I won't mention anything else because I'm thinking about her entire body...

I have noticed something about Evelyn when I see her going in and out of shops...why isn't she grieving? Why don't I see her crying? Why does she look happy when she goes out? Why? WHY?

She was the one who broke up with me. She was also the first one to confess her lo – no her adoration for me, so why isn't she crying her eyes out? (I hate using that 'L' word.)

So I am writing in this fucking diary while Evelyn is busy getting it on with Ian? Are they making out when they go out?

Is Ian just a rebound for Evelyn? Wait! I don't care if he's a rebound. She shouldn't be dating ANY other man – especially Ian! Come to think of it...didn't Evelyn mention Ian isn't interested in her? Or is he seeing someone?