Tears In Heaven

5 - Reminiscing You

Hades' PoV

Here I am. Again. At your graveyard. Still unable to absorb that you're gone. Na wala na yung babaeng di ko inaakalang magiging malaking parte ng pagbabago ko ng sarili ko.

You know you can't possibly have a family if ganyan ka ng ganyan, di ba? Gusto mo ba maging basag ulo anak mo kagaya mo? Don't you want the kid to see a daddy he can be proud of? Laking probinsiya ako at di kita ganun kakilala oo pero sa nakikita ko sayo, kaya mo pa baguhin ang sarili mo Hades

Alam ko hindi ako nagrespond sayo nung panahong sinabi mo to saken pero hanggang ngayon dala dala ko to.

You have the wisdom that I've never seen before. Kahit na mahirap ka at mahirap ang buhay. You... you have that smile. You have a genuinely beautiful smile. A smile that I will always cherish... and now... remember in my heart, forever.

We started at the wrong foot. I even kissed you even when we didn't know about each other. Little did I know that that kiss would spark into another encounter. Mahihila kita sa mundo ko. Makikita mo kung sino talaga ako.

You were crazy. No. I, I was the crazy one. I was the crazy one to have wasted you. To have wasted the times that I should've been together with you.

I never expected to fall in love... but I was glad it was with you Fara.

I pulled out the heart necklace I bought for her habang nakaharap sa puntod niya.

"I should've just given this to you, Fara. I should've mastered the courage to give you a gift even when you know I'm not that type of guy"

Napayukom ang kamao ko at napayuko na lang ako. Naiiyak na naman ako. If only... if only I can bring back the past. Kung maibabalik ko lang yung panahon bago kita iniwan. I'd go there this instant and hug and cherish you more than my life.

Hindi na yata mauubos ang luha ko just knowing how much of an idiot I was with you, Fara. Ang bigat bigat sa dibdib na makita kang ganito... na wala na kong magawa para man lang makausap at mayakap ka.

Sorry... sorry will never be enough but I will say it everyday to you, in this tomb if I have to. Miss na miss na kita Fara.

"Hades?"

Natigilan ako when somebody called out my name. Paglingon ko, it was Fara's mother.

Napayuko na lang ako... wala akong mukhang maiharap sa kanya. Hiyang hiya ako... sobrang hiyang hiya ako.

"Sorry... tita I'm so sorry" was all I can say before kneeling before her, crying, holding onto my knees.

Naramdaman ko namang naglakad siya palapit sa puntod ni Fara at ibinaba ang bulaklak na dala niya, bago tinapik ang likod ko

"Tumayo ka na dyan, iho" sambit nito pulling me up bago huminga ng malalim

"I've been waiting to see you" sambit nito

Tumingin lang ako sa kanya to mutter the words I'm sorry once again pero natigilan na lang ako sa sunod niyang sinabi

"Your daughter needs you, Hades"