Please don't leave me

Chapter 4

Derek went to Meredith's Room. What he saw there broke his heart. Meredith laid down in an ICU bed, intubated. Derek went to her with his crutches as he felt light headed. He tried to grab Meredith's bed but failed. He collapsed on the ground and darkness surrounded him.

Amelia POV

I went into Meredith's room to check on her, but then I saw my brother on the ground not moving. "Derek?" I yelled. "C'mon open your eyes." I begged him, I checked his pupils and one was blown. "OH no,I need a gurney here now and someone page Nelson." I yelled. "What happened?" Bailey asked as she ran into the room. "I think he passed out. One Pupil is blown. He has a brain bleed." I cried. Suddenly Meredith's stats dropped. "NO, Meredith, stay here. And Derek stays here too. Please." I cried.

Meredith's POV

I was on a sunny beach. Normally I love the beach but not now. I have to go back to Derek and the kids. "Mer, what are you doing here?" A voice asked. "George, what is this?" I asked, scared. "I don't know, That's your afterlife." George said. "My After-what. Am I dead?" I asked, scared. "Not now, but Mer you have to fight. For your Kids, for Derek, for your little one and for your sisters." George said. "I want to fight. I have to fight." I said. "Meredith?" Another voice asked. "Mom? What are you doing here?" "I'm here to help you." She replied. "Help me? With what?" I asked. "To help you to fight, Meredith. You have to fight for my son-in-law and my grandbabies." She said, "You, you know about them?" I asked with tears in my eyes. She nodded. "I'm so proud of you Meredith. Don't let your family fall apart. You're a better human than me. I was good at cutting but you're good as a surgeon, wife and as a mom. You can't leave them, you have to fight for my third grandchild. I'm sorry for your childhood Meredith. I'm so sorry. I love you." She whispered, she stood right in front of me. I hesitated for a second but then I hugged her tightly and she hugged me back. "I love you too Mom and I want to fight mom." I said. "Mom? Where are you?" I asked. I was all alone on the beach once again. "Meredith?" A very familiar voice asked from behind. "Derek? Oh my god." I hugged him tightly. "Meredith what is this here?" He asked. "George said it's our afterlife, but we're not dead now. We're hanging in there I think what are you doing here?" "I don't know. I saw my Dad, Mer." He whispered. "I hugged him Mer it felt like home." He added. "I know. I saw my mom. She told me she is proud and that she loved me." I replied with a smile. "That's what my dad told me too and that he agreed with Ma, that you are the one for me." He replied with a smile. I smiled at him "My mom told me to go back to her son-in-law and to go back to her grandbabies." I replied. "She called me her son-in-law? Wow, that's new." He laughed. "I know. Derek we can't leave the kids, we have to go back." I replied. Then I saw Derek's expression. "It's so peaceful here Mer, there's no pain here. It's beautiful here. I got to see my dad again. I could hug him Mer. I did that the last time when I was 10." He replied with a sad smile. "Derek, you can't leave me with three kids. I need you. This baby deserves to have a dad. Zola deserves to have her idol. Bailey deserves to have a dad who plays soccer with him because I don't know how to play. I deserve to have my husband, my best friend , my soulmate and the love of my life. I can't raise three kids without you Derek. I need you. If you die I'll fall apart. I'll never be the same. I'll become the old Meredith again. You can't let that happen. You can't die." I cried, tears were running down my cheeks. Derek wiped them gently away. "Mer, I'm not planning to leave you. I'll do everything in my power to stay alive. If you do the same. Promise me that you fight." He said gently, I nodded. "I love you." He whispered. "I love you too." I replied and hugged him tightly. "Ugh I'm going to be sick." A voice said. Derek and I turned towards the voice. "MARK." I yelled. "Mark." Derek whispered. "Big Grey aka. my favorite dirty mistress and Shep. How are you." He laughed as he stood 7 feet away from us. "How good as someone can be after being hit by an 18 wheeler." I joked. "Mark, I told you not to visit them without me." A very familiar voice said. "Lexie." I whispered. "Little Grey." Derek said. "I'm sorry Lex. I had to disturb them." Mark joked. I heard a baby cry, then I saw a baby in Lexie's arm. "Who is this?" I asked. "That's your son Mer." Lexie replied. "Our son?" Derek asked. "The baby you lost at the shooting." Mark explained. "Oh God." I sobbed. I felt an arm wrapped around my waist. "He's okay Mer. He is safe here with Lexie, Mark and everyone else." Derek whispered into my ear as he kissed the side of my head. "Can I hold him?" I asked. Mark and Lexie shared sad glances. "I'm sorry Mer, but if you hold him, you'll die. We're your guardians. If you touch one of us-" Lexie started. "We'll die." Derek ended the sentence with a whisper. Mark nodded. "I want to hold him." I cried, as I fell in the sand. Derek kneeled down beside me and hugged me. "I know you want to hold him Honey but you can't. You can't die. I need you. The Baby" He laid his hand down on my stomach. "needs you. Zola and Bailey need you. Richard needs his daughter the same for Miranda. I know they are your parent figures. Maggie needs her big sister and Amelia needs her little sister. Arizona needs her Plane Crash survivor, Callie needs her friend and Alex needs his person." He said with a trembling voice. "But you're a plane crash survivor too. I just want to hold him Der. Please let me hold him, please." I begged. "You can't." I was about to run towards them, when Derek hugged me tightly. "You can't leave. Meredith please. Please stay here. I know you want to hug him, so do I. But we can't leave our kids Mer. Look he is safe with Lexie and Mark. They are taking care of him. He is safe. He is happy Mer, but if you leave you'll leave many people heartbroken. You can't leave them Mer. It would destroy them, okay?" he explained in a firm but also soft voice. I nodded and cuddled into his chest. Mark and Lexie watched the scene with sad expressions. They sat down in the sand now 6 feet away from us. Which means that we are one step closer to death. "Mer, you can name him, if you want." Lexie suggested, I looked at Derek who nodded. "I think I want to name him Liam. I don't know why I just love this name." I answered. Derek nodded. "Liam Shepherd, It's beautiful." Mark said in awe. Lexie looked at the baby with a smile. I couldn't stop my tears from falling. "Hey, what's wrong?" Derek asked. "I'm so sorry." I sobbed. "Why are you sorry?" Derek asked, confused. "I'm sorry I lost him. I still feel guilty about the fact that I lost him. I'm so sorry." I cried into his chest. "Mer, Honey it wasn't your fault. It was Gary Clark's fault not yours. Why didn't you tell me that you were still struggling with this situation." he asked. "I didn't want you to be upset with me." I whispered. "Oh Mer, I would never be upset with you. I love you." He replied as he gently stroked my back. "I love you too. Derek?" "Hm?" "We have to go back now. If I stay here one minute longer then I'll never leave." I said to him. He nodded and helped me up. "Lexie, Mark, Liam , I love you three so much. I don't want to leave but I have to. I need to go back." I said while tearing up. Mark and Derek talked to each other a few more minutes before Derek took my hand and we went away from Mark and Lexie. Then I woke up in a hospital bed. I tried to speak but I couldn't. Then I realized the tube down my throat. I choked. Amelia came into my Room. "Hey Mer, I'll get the tube out okay?" I nodded the best I could. "Okay you know the procedure." She took the tube out and I coughed. She handed me water, which I took gratefully. "Thanks." I whispered. "Meredith, can you feel your legs?" She asked. I looked at her confused but nodded. She sighed in relief. "Why shouldn't I feel my legs?" I asked. "When you came with the ambulance yesterday, you couldn't feel your legs. You had a bleeding in your spine. Which I fixed." She explained. "Amelia, where's Derek?" I asked. She inhaled sharply, I began to panic. "Meredith calm down. He's alive, he is in the room next to you. He had a Brain bleed. He wanted to visit you but passed out in your room." She told me. "Maybe my dream wasn't a dream. Maybe it was real." I mumbled. Suddenly it hit me. "Is my Baby

okay?" I asked with a scared voice. "Your baby is perfectly fine Meredith." I breathed in relief. "Amelia, I know normally you can't bring children in the ICU but could you try to sneak Zola and Bailey to me? I need them now." She sighed but nodded. "I'll try." "If someone says something you can say that your sister and brother own the hospital." I chuckled.She laughed and nodded. Then she went to daycare and I thought about my dream on the beach and Liam who was there with Mark and Lexie. I thought about my mom's words, was she really proud of me, I mean she would've told me if she wasn't. "MOMMY." I ripped out my thoughts when I heard my kids. "Zola, Bails. Hey." I replied calmly. Zola began to climb on my bed. "Hey Zo, be careful your Mommy has an owie on her back okay." Amelia told Zola. "You okay Mommy?" Zola asked. "I'm good Honey. I'm good." I replied as I hugged her tightly. "Mommy." "Bailey come to me." I reached out for him. "Be careful Meredith, you just had surgery on your spine." Amelia said in a firm voice. I nodded and waved her over to me. She sat down beside me. "Thank you Amelia. You're a very good sister. I know, I'm not always that easy, I can be a monster sometimes and I'm sorry for that." She smiled and stood up to hug me. "Can I hug you?" She asked, I nodded. "You're a better sister to me than my biological sisters." She whispered as she hugged me. I laughed and smiled. "Mommy, where's daddy?" Zola asked suddenly. "Your daddy has a little owie on his head but he will be okay." I explained to Zola as Bailey was sleeping on my chest. "Hey Amelia, could you take Zola please?" I asked when Zola fell asleep, she nodded and laid Zola down on the couch. "How are you really doing Mer?" Amelia asked. "I don't know. I'm happy that I'm not paralized and that my baby is well but I'm scared because of Derek." I said honestly. "I was scared for the both of you. I'm glad that you're awake. When Derek called that you were in an accident, my heart stopped. I never heard Derek crying." She said, "Wait, Derek called you and he cried?" I asked in confusion. "What is the last thing you can remember Meredith?" She asked. "Derek asked where his phone was, I found it under my seat I think and then the truck came. That's the last thing I know, then I woke up and you were here." I replied. "Wait I can remember that I couldn't feel my legs for a moment, I think I was in a trauma bay." Just as Amelia wanted to answer, an alarm went off in Derek's room.

Derek POV

A second ago I was on the beach with Meredith, Mark, Lexie and our baby and now I'm in a hospital room. 'How did I get here?' Then I noticed the tube which was down my throat. I immediately choked on it. Amelia ran into my room and extubated me. I coughed slightly, my head throbbed in pain. "Derek? Say something please." Amelia said. "Mer?" I asked. Amelia sighed in relief. "Meredith is in the room next to you with the kids. She's okay, so is the baby. She can feel her legs. Everything is okay." Amelia explained, I just nodded. "Why am I here?" I asked. "You wanted to see Meredith and then you passed out. You had a Brain Bleed which Nelson fixed. I'm so glad you're okay." Amelia replied with tears in her eyes. I opened my Arms and let her hug me. After she pulled away I asked if I could see Meredith. "I'm sorry but Meredith's incision has to heal first and you just had Brain Surgery. Maybe we can bring you tomorrow in a normal room together." she said, I nodded. "Can you give Meredith and me a tablet so that we can talk?" I asked, she nodded and went to the nurses station. She handed me a tablet before she went over to Meredith's room and handed her a tablet. Meredith said something to her before she called me. "Hey Mer." I said as I saw her face. "Hey." She replied quietly. I saw Amelia leaving the room with Zola and Bailey. "Amelia is bringing the kids over to Alex." Meredith said as she saw my frown. I nodded. "Are you okay Mer?" I asked. "I think. My back hurts and so do my broken bones. What about you?" She asked. "I'm good." I replied with a smile. "Hey Der? Do you remember Mark, Lexie and Liam?" She asked quietly. "You remember that too? Thank God I thought I was crazy." I replied with a chuckle. I noticed the tears in her eyes. "Hey Mer, everything is okay. We both are alive. We're good." I said to her. "I miss them, and I miss Liam." She replied while tears were running down her cheeks. "I know you do. I miss him too." We both talked a bit before Amelia took our tablets and told us to sleep. 

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