Blaze and I were hanging out in my bedroom. We've been on three missions now and I've done good on each. I'm pretty sure I'm officially and permanently part of the team now. I was glad. I actually enjoyed it here. The girls were so much fun.
"Come here." I smiled as I walked closer to her. "Wanna see the most beautiful thing in the world?"
"Sure..." I looked at her unsure of what was to follow. "Look in my eyes."
"They're beautiful."
"Look at the black parts what do you see?"
"It's my reflection why?" I looked at her confused and she smiled. "Now you've seen one of the most beautiful things in the world. You've seen yourself through my eyes."
"Blaze..." I stood there speechless. She said things to me often that made feel warm inside, but it was always as friends. It pained me to see her think of me this way and not love me.
"What's wrong?" She looked at me confused. "Its nothing." I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked away from her as I returned my vision to her she was even closer. "I mean it."
"You're beautiful Yelena...inside and out." Her lips brushed against mine as she tried to read my reaction. "I have feelings for you."
I gasped at the words that escaped my mouth, but I quickly realized I didn't regret them. She lightly pulled me closer to her connecting our lips gently. She was always so gentle with me. It was only a few seconds until she pulled away resting her head above mine. Swaying back and forth she held me in her arms for awhile in silence.
"I have feelings for you too." She kissed my forehead and I smiled into her chest. I've never had someone make me feel special or so loved before. I held my arms around her torso lightly tightening my hold on her as we stood in the middle of the room.
"So what does this mean?" I looked up at her nervously and she smiled. Gently placing another kiss on my lips, she took a step back. "We take things slowly and at the pace you wish. I want you be happy." She rubbed her hand across my back as I melted at her words.
"The other girls aren't going to-."
"They're not going to do shit. Plus they all saw it coming trust me. Ava might a little mad at you for awhile..."
"I can take her I'm not worried." She grinned a bit as I pulled her back into me connecting our lips again. This time much longer with slightly more agressiveness which triggered her to push me onto my back on my bed.
"Ugh you're literally so fucking hot." Blaze pulled back and smiled before leaving a few kisses around my face and neck making me smile. After that she just rolled to her side and laid there holding me.
"We're not the only ones who like each other on the team right?" She sat up one arm to look at me after hearing my voice laced with concern.
"Eva and Anna, Kaia and Cara, Mh and Ava." I raised an eyebrow at the last pairing and she just gave a nod. "Everything is going to be fine I promise." She kissed my forehead once again and smiled tightening her hold on me as if she was afraid that I'd drift away.
"You're not going to treat me different on missions right? And other things we do around here."
"I already do Yelena. What's the problem if I do? If anything I'm only letting you do the harder things faster."
"Well I registered harder and faster." Her eyebrows raised and she hid the smirk from coming on her face. "Mmhmm."
"We will have to ease into things around the others though. Trust me in how I handle this?" She quirked her head and me and I smiled. "I trust you."
"I'm glad." She left small quick kiss on my lips once again before exiting my room.
I just kissed Blaze Brielle.
I sat in my bed smiling at the ceiling like a little kid. I felt like one or maybe I was just happy and I haven't really had that feeling since I was a kid.
Just like on the plane when I felt so upset by her just like my family had made me. She was that close to me in such little time.
Why did I feel this way towards her?
Right now it felt like she was everything to me. She was always on my mind and all I could ever move towards. Is this a bad thing?
I could feel myself overthinking the whole situation, but what I just did could have been a terrible choice.
