The Minecraft Brothers 3 - Luck

8 So; Gunna talk?

Mentions of thinking and mentions almost doing self harm

This is through out the whole chapter. Sorry if you are unable to read it.
(There will only be this warning for that reason)

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School
(To be more specific, a maths room)
11:52am

(Tubbo pov)

So, I think Ranboo knew something big was up.
He kept looking round at me. He would also pass notes asking if I was okay or wanted to talk when ever he could. I guess I was lucky to have a friend like Ranboo. He wanted to help.
But I don't think I am ready to talk about what happened yesterday with out breaking down. I don't think I will ever be ready.
Why?
Why did I want to do it? It is a horrible thing. But- but do I deserve it?
I don't understand my own thoughts anymore.

I heard the bell ring and rushed out of class. I'm not sure if Ranboo got out as quick as I did, but it doesn't matter.
I bashed into someone.
It was the bullies.
Red, Orange and Blue as I call them.

(He doesn't know there names, okay?
I also need names for them so feel free to suggest some!)

"Hello Tubbo." Red smiled.
"I'm sorry... I'll- I'll leave..." I mutted. I went to walk away but Blue slammed me into his locked.
"Nope." He laughed.
"Get off..." I felt a sharp pain down my back.
"Aw, he wants us to get off?" Orange laughed.
"You have ears now. Now you are even more of a freak!" Red smiled. Blue and Orange laughed.
"Leave me alone..." I said, looking at the floor.
"Why? So you can go bug thay tall ender boy?" Blue said.
"I bet he doesn't even like you. Being ender is way cooler than being a goat!" Orange smiled.
"I'm part ram... not that you would know... your stupid..." I rolled my eyes.
"Aw! He thinks he knows something. You can't even read and write!" Red said.
Blue and Orange smiled.
"I can read... and Write..."
"Spell pythagoras." Blue said. "You were just doing it. You should know."
"P-" I thought. I really couldn't figure it out. I knew it. I had just seen it.
They all laughed.
"I- I'm dyslexic..." I said.
"Aw, how cute. You struggle to read and write."

"LEAVE HIM ALONE!"

We all turned to see Ranboo.
"Or you will all regret it." He added.
"Aw, so I can't do this?" Oranged punched my eye.
"Ow!" I called.
"Can I do this?" Red kicked my knees.
I fell to the floor.
"Or this?" He kicked me in the stomach.
Words couldn't express how much I wished I was at home. Even if it meant I would have to talk about last night.
"LEAVE HIM ALONE!" Ranboo called.
"Can I do this?" Orange tugged at my horns. Red tugged at my ears.
"Ow!" I called. Okay, they had gone to far.
"AGH!"
Red and Orange turned around. I looked inbetween the two boys.
Ranboo had Blue in a head lock.
"Let Tubbo go, and I let him go." Ranboo sounded really angry. "Or does he want two matching black eyes?"
"Fine. Have the freak. Let's go." The boys ran off. Ranboo let Blue go and he ran after them.
Ranboo kneeled in front of me.
"Tubbo, you okay?" He looked at my knees.
"I'm fine." I looked away.
"No your not." Ranboo hugged me. I smiled a bit and hugged him back.
"So; gunna talk?" Ranboo looked at me.
"A- about what?" I pretended to have no idea what he was talking about.
"Follow me." Ranboo helped me up. I almost fell over again so he helped me walk.

We walked into this almost empty room. I didn't even know what this room was.
"Hello Ranboo. Is this your friend?" A woman asked.
"Yep. Can I speak with him in here? It is really personal and he doesn't want anyone else to hear." Ranboo asked.
"Sure thing. Anything for my Ranboo." The woman left.
"Thanks!"
"Who was that?" I asked.
Ranboo helped me sit on the sofa that was in the room.
"That was my auntie." Ranboo sat next to me. "She works here and has this room."
"Oh." I started to rub my aching horns.
"So, tell me what's up." Ranboo said.
"It's nothing! Nothing is up! I-"
"Why did you try to do it?" Ranboo asked.
"Do-"
"You know."
I looked away.
I knew I could trust Ranboo. I could tell him anything. He wouldn't tell anyone unless he had to. He wouldn't panic. He would help. Or the best he could. Ranboo is my best friend. He wouldn't judge me for anything I say. He would listen.
But this? Anyone would judge you for this, right? This was horrible. He would hate me for it. Ranboo probably does hate me for trying it.
"Tubbo, listen, I want to help you. But I need you to tell me so I can help." Ranboo said.
"I- I'm fine. Nothing is wrong." I said.
Ranboo showed me his phone.

Ranboo

Is everything okay? I saw I had a miss call from you.

Tommy

Ranboo help.
Tubbo had a rock.
He tried to hurt himself.

Ranboo

You can't be serious.

Tommy

I am. It is upseting me. I don't think he understands how bad it is for him and, I don't want to sound all self centred, but also the people around him. I'm his twin. I feel like have failed as his twin. I somehow didn't stop him getting the rock. Getting as far as he did.

Ranboo

It isn't your fault. He probably got the rock when you where not around to stop him. You haven't failed.

Tommy

Please Ranboo.
I want to help him, but I don't know how.

Ranboo

I can try help. He may talk to me.

Tommy

Why would he speak to you and not me?

Ranboo

Come on Tommy.
You know it can be easier to talk to a friend and not a family member.
But did he really want to hurt himself?

Tommy

He did.
It was a really sharp rock. He held it right on his arm when I walked in.
I'm scared

Ranboo

I can't make any promises, but I will try to help.
He's my best friend.
This hurts me too.

Tommy

Thank you. Even if you don't do it for me (I know I have been horrible to you) do it for Tubbo.

Ranboo

I'll do anything for you two

I read it. Well, had Ranboo help. But I knew what it all said.
"You can't think that Tommy won't tell me if you are upset. He tells me almost everything." Ranboo said.
"So- So you know what happened?" I asked.
"Yep. After that me and Tommy went into a discord call. He was crying."
I felt tears build in my eyes. "I'm sorry. I never wanted to hurt you and Tommy. Or anyone." I said.
"Tubbo, it's okay, we know you didn't mean it."
"But it's not! I wanted to do something cause I felt like everyone hated me and I should pay for being annoying, but I am makeing things worse. I am upseting people. I never wanted to fo that." I said.
I just told Ranboo why I wanted to do it. I can't believe it. I just told someone.
"I- I thought you all find me annoying. Especially now with the horns and all. I felt like I was just bugging people and that I should be punished for it. So I got the rock. I was gunna hurt myself so I could pay for all my mistakes- for- for-" I started to cry. I couldn't finish. "For- being ann- annoying. For- Trying to have- have friends. For- for- not be- being able to- to read a- and write. For e- everything."

So, have sadness.
Yep.
No skipping to happy chapters.
UNLESS YOU CAN NOT READ THIS OBVIOUSLY! I AM NOT FORCING IT ON ANYONE. THAY WOULD BE A HORRIBLE THING TO DO AND NO ON SHOULD DO THAT TO ANYONE!

So, how was this chapter? How much out of 10?

Btw, I don't know (or think) it says anywhere, but I go by They/Them. Just thought I would add that in case I haven't.
I don't remember.

Anyway, (less about me)

Have a great day/night!