𝐿𝑂𝑉𝐸 𝐶𝑌𝐶𝐿𝐸 ♡

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"They see the Instagram, the comments and all the likes but they don't see the makeup's and the breakups, and the fights" -RodWave✨.

||Los Angeles, California📍||
Kemani Leon Wright✨.

I layed my head back sitting in my car smoking a blunt and starring out the window at the graveyard in front of me. this was my fourth blunt today. I've been facing them back ta back since I woke up

Today is the day that my twin brother Kenny died and I'm just not really in the mood for nun

"That cigarette stank" My nephew said from the back seat of my car and I instantly laughed

"This aint no cigarette Kaleb. My fault tho I forgot" I said putting it out

"Oh" He said looking back at the phone watching youtube

We were parked a few feet away from Kenny's tombstone. We've been here for about 20 minutes but I just wasn't ready ta get out the car yet. I decided to take Kaleb with me because I ain't know if his mama was going to

"You ready to go see yo daddy" I turned around and looked at him

"Yea, I wanna see my daddy" He started taking off his seatbelt, I got out and opened the door for him to get out

I grabbed his hand and we started walking toward his grave. Once we made it I dusted off the old leaves and looked at the picture they had of him on it

The more I think about my brother the more my heart aches, I try not to think about it cuhz I know it puts me in a dark place but it's hard sometimes. I miss that nigga so much bruh

"Look at yo daddy, Say hi" I told Kaleb

"Hi daddy" He smiled and waved

I sat down next to his tombstone and looked at it going deep into my thoughts about everything. I just wish that I was there when everything went down. I feel like I'm never there when my people need me the most. First with my twin brother and then Jay. In both situations I feel like I could've been there to help and they would've both been alive til this day. It be fucking me up just to think about

"Why Kenny? I ain't gon lie you fucked me up wit this one bro ... You could've been the smart twin. ta finish school, And make momma proud. You aint have to follow behind me and pops we idiots and I should've been a better example for you. I'm sorry for not being there for you at a time you needed me the most and for not protecting you from them niggas, if I could take back time I would switch places witchu in a heartbeat so you can take care of Kaleb and the family" I spoke

"I know you and Jay goofy ass is up there laughing at me right now. I luh you nigga" I chuckled

"Why are you talking to yourself uncle?" Kaleb asked me

"i'm not talkin to myself man, I'm talkin to yo daddy" I chuckled

"But my daddy is not a wock, When mommy takes me here she be talkin to herself to. Y'all weird"

"He is under the rock in the ground, And if you talk he will listen ta you. Come talk to him" I sat him on my lap

"Tell him anything you want" I told him

"Okay, Daddy I can spell my name, and I can spell apple, and my mommy said I'm really smart"

"Oh, and some nigga at school tried to hit me at play time so I beat his ass and he told the teacher on me" He spoke clearly and I laughed

"Good job, dap me up" I put my hand out and he shook it

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I sat in my living room chillin and waiting for my baby to come from school. I took Kaleb back to his momma because they doing sum wit my mom today so I was just at the cribb