I'm still in the hospital with little D, he's so cute and such a happy baby. He opened his eyes for the first time today, he has his dad's eyes and I couldn't be happier. I can't wait to see what he's like when he gets older, I know that since he won't have his dad to model after, I guess I'll have to do the best I can. Apparently Dustin has been making video diaries, he said that there's a shit ton of discs with dates on them like first, second, and third birthday, there's one for his wedding day, and a few others for important dates. There's even a few for me in there, those are the ones that I'm worried about, not necessarily my son's but mine because I know I'll cry like crazy every time I watch one. Thankfully Dustin is on his way to the hospital so he can see Little D. Dustin came up with that so he wouldn't have to say his own name whenever he's talking to him. I think it's kinda cute, I'll definitely be sticking with that after he's gone. I was laying in bed holding little D in my arms waiting for Dustin when the door creaked open. I looked over to see Jay standing in the doorway, I gave him a confused and questioning look, he held his hands up in surrender walking into the room.
"I already called Dustin and he said it was cool. "
I nodded my head, he walked closer to the bed and looked down at Little D with a smile on his face.
"I never thought in a million years my little brother would get married and have a kid before I did, this is really fucking sad."
I laughed a little nodding my head agreeing with him.
"Do you want to hold your nephew?"
He looked at me for a second before nodding his head, I carefully handed Little D over to Jay, he smiled before turning his attention back to me.
"What's his name?"
"Dustin Lee Renn, it's a tribute to Dustin and my dad."
"How is that a tribute to your dad and Dustin? He has Dustin's full name?"
"My dad and Dustin have the same middle name."
He nodded his head looking back at little D.
"What nickname did Dustin give him?"
"Well right now it's little D, but when he gets older it'll change to just D."
He smiled, Dustin walked into the room with a burger king bag, I smiled giving him a kiss, he placed the bag on my tray, I smiled at him.
"Have I told you lately that I love you."
He made a look like he was thinking for a second.
"No, I don't think so."
He joked, and I lightly tapped his arm.
"I love you asshole."
He laughed again.
"I love you bitch."
I smiled, opening the burger king bag, taking out a fry and shoving it into my mouth. I pulled out the medium fry, and the whopper taking a big bite watching Jay with little D, Dustin looked at me with a smile on his face.
"I want to talk to the both of you about something."
Jay and I both looked at Dustin with confusion.
"Alright, what's going on love?"
I asked, he took a deep breath.
"When I'm gone I want the two of you to take care of each other, to be together. Maybe even get married, raise little D as your own even though he is one of your own."
He said looking at me.
"I know that this sounds crazy..."
I cut him off right there.
