XI.
- Trish -
It was already getting late and we still have work tomorrow, it's my last day working with the glam team and after that, I'll go back to my original job, which is at the restaurant.
I am rummaging through the crowd, in hopes of finding Aubrey. I don't know where she went, and I badly want to go home, aside from that I am a little bit drunk, I'm already getting bored here.
"Let's go home" a pair of hands grabbed me by my wrist and before I could answer, we're already outside in front of someone's car
"Wha-what are you doing? Please release me" I uttered as I struggled to free my wrist off of her
"Trish please, you're drunk, let me take you home" she replied
"Oh, its you. You go home, I'll go back inside I have to find someone and I'm not drunk, just a little bit tipsy" I answered her as I turned my back from her
"If you're gonna go and find Aubrey, good luck with that. She left an hour ago, something came up with work so she asked me to take you home" she answered and even if I'm not looking at her, I know she was grinning
"Fuck" I gasped
"So? Are you gonna let me take you home or I'm taking you in my home?" she answered with an authoritative voice
"Well, seems like I'm left with no choice" I hate you, Aubrey!!! I swear I'm gonna pinch you tomorrow
The ride was fine, no one has dared to talk. It has been minutes and this ride has been killing the insides of me, this is so awkward but on the other side, having Cate beside me felt so calm and secure.
She turned on the music and the Savage Garden's – I Knew I Loved You has played; it filled the empty spaces in the car which was really deafening.
[I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life]
I felt the butterflies and sunshine swarming in my stomach, do I really still like you, Cate? Am I feeling it again?
"It's funny, isn't it?" she broke the silence
"Huh?" I honestly don't know what she's referring
"You were the one driving me home the first time we met, and now you're the one who's drunk and I'm driving you home" she huffed and smiled
There it is, her smile. I felt a pang of pain in my chest, and I really cannot go through this again.
I know what she's doing. She's trying to talk about the elephant in the room and I am definitely not ready for it. Am I dumb? an idiot? I don't know, maybe I am.
"Uh, stop the car, we're here" I made her pull the car, I cannot have this conversation, it would destroy me and would open things before that I have decided to bury - for good.
"What? Are you sure?" she answered, her hands still holding the steering wheel
"Yeah, thank you by the way. I can walk, my apartment's just a block away from here" I did not wait for her answer as I immediately abandoned her car
"Trisha are you for real? It's already late and seriously you're gonna walk? Its not safe" she shouted
What am I thinking, for god's sake I don't know where I am right now. Fuck this is nowhere near my apartment or even Charlie's. But, whatever, I can go home by myself, I hope so.
"I thought you're headed home?" she suddenly appeared which caused me to flinch
"What are you doing here? Are you stalking me now? I told you I can walk home alone" I answered without even facing her
"Trish, I just wanted to make sure that your safe" she answered with much sincerity
"Please, I'm old enough. I can take care of myself Miss Blanchett, thank you for your concern, you can head home now" I replied with a stern voice
"Can I--- atleast walk you home? Please?" she tried keeping her pace with me
"No, you don't have to" I answered
Fuck, I need you to let me walk alone, you need to leave me alone because if not, I might betray myself once again. I might fall for you once again, I cannot be with you, not at least this near.
"I insist Trish" she grabbed my wrist to assist me
"No! I said I can walk home alone. To be honest, I don't know why you're doing this, I'm just your employee, oh wait do you do this to all who works under you? Because I don't fucking know why you're acting like this towards me Miss. What happened before—just—just forget it okay? It doesn't matter to me now. So, please just go" Fuck, it was almost like I shouted at her. I had enough, I-I just need to go home.
"O-okay, I'm sorry, I will not bother you anymore. I'm so sorry for everything" she answered, tears were tempting to fall from her eyes, and before I could say something, she turned her back from me and rushed towards her car.
I was left here, dumbfounded, I didn't mean to hurt her. I- I didn't know why I said that.
"I love you, Cate, I still do"
I felt my tears dropping from my face to my hands as the wind has passed through me.
A/N:
I dedicate this chapter to @19_rayofsunshine, love u kiddo!!!
