XXVI.
- Third Person's POV -
The letter has stabbed her to death. She knew from the very beginning that what they had shouldn't have come that far. That such a crazy love story was far from giving them a happy ending, but she gambled.
She has poured everything, putting all that she had at stake, and disregarded all of her second thoughts and "what ifs".
All because she loved her deeply and Cate was worth it.
Unfortunately, the universe was unfair and the odds have never been in her favor. Metaphorically, she has been killed two times in a row, first when his father died and now, Cate has left her.
The myriad of traumas and heartaches has completely shut her down. Trish has agonized deeply over two distinct individuals to whom she has given her life.
She stopped singing and hated everything connected to music. Cate leaving her has buried her into the lowest and deepest trench of desolation.
Years after, she was still struggling from living alone without someone financially supporting her. She had to work ceaselessly because she didn't want to seek help from her mom and her mom's newfound family's wealth.
She despised her – a lot. With the death of her father, it occurred to her that her mom was the one to blame. Her mom destroyed her dad, her only offspring, and the family that they have built. She held her mom responsible for every single thing that she has gone through. She hated her, for leaving them, for neglecting her, and for all the tears that her dad has shed.
But for some reason, deep within her she still hoped. That her mom would come back for her, would embrace her, and would call her, her kid. But her mom never did.
She was robbed by all of their egocentric reasons, and eventually, she has lost her voice.
She was left with no choice because who was she kidding? She was only twenty 20 at that time with no formal work experience, so she joined the band again, and started playing at speakeasies.
That was when she saw Cate again – drunk, too helpless to even go home.
Yes, she lied. Everything was just a lie.
and you were fooled.
For Trish knew all along that it was Cate. How can she forget her? She loved the person so much but she hated her too. Cate left and took with her Trisha's opportunity for proper closure. She hated that feeling, the consistency of people leaving her and she was too hurt by the fact that she was never enough reason for people to stay.
So she continued lying. The night that she drove Cate home, her sole purpose was to know how she was and where she lived. On their way to Cate's home, she was too torn. Trish badly wanted to kiss and hug the person who have hurt her badly for she missed her. It has been years and seeing Cate once more was a nostalgic sensation filling her stomach with deadly butterflies.
But, Trish has witnessed how good she was living -which justified what Cate has written in the letter; that she has a different life outside the facility. More so, when she saw the shadow of a woman changing Cate's clothes and kissing her in what she believed the master's bedroom. It was a sight too excruciating for Trish to see. Before such feelings would stab her to death once more, she finally decided to distance herself and forget Cate – for good.
