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I Hate You, I Love You

Feeling used, but I'm
Still missing you and I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips
And now all this time is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

Sam was out riding her bike in the busy streets of L.A. when she started to think about him again. Every time she thought she was free from thinking about him and missing him the memories would pop back into her head again.

Their first kiss.

"Hey, I hate you." His cute smile.

"Hate you too."

Their break up.

"I love you."

"Love you too."

The way his hands gripped her waist pulling her closer to him as they kissed for the last time.

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

The way he went back to his crush on Carly like their relationship meant nothing to him.

"Alright, I'm gonna follow Carly up." Those words hurt.

"Hey! Do you have a new little crush on her?"

He scoffed, but I knew. "What? N- No." I could see it on his face. It was like our relationship was nothing to him. He snorted.

"Well go."

"Bye."

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

Freddie was sitting in his living room, it was almost 2 in the morning and he couldn't get back to sleep. He poured himself some coffee, but quickly spit it out when he realized it was his mom's decaf coffee she tried to force on him.

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart, too
And I'm always tired, but never of you

He remembered their relationship like it was yesterday, but in reality they had broken up years ago in high school. They almost got back together, twice, but they acted like nothing happened and moved on.

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text, but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings, but you never mind that shit

Freddie took out his phone to text Sam, but after he finished typing I miss you he deleted it and put his phone down beside the mug.

He sighed. "She's probably asleep. If I wake her up she'll kill me."

Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me, but your friends don't know
If you wanted me, you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

Sam pulled her bike into the driveway and walked into her apartment. She moved out of Cat's place and now she was living on her own. She takes bike rides late at night because her apartment is lonely and she hates being alone.