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Sick Inside

Another Smarkle/Riarkle one

I'm just a girl who
Kissed a boy who
Is in love with someone else
I didn't mean to
Feel the way I do
It just happened by itself

And now I'm sick inside
Yeah, it makes me wanna cry
I'm so sorry about last night
Yeah, It happened so fast
I wanted it to last
In the moment it felt so right
But now I'm sick inside

"Maya I have a huge problem!" Riley yelled bursting through her best friends door.

Maya pulled her lips away from Lucas and slipped off his lap. "I'll say." She grumbled. "I'm kinda busy Riles. Is it life or death?"

"I kissed Farkle!" Riley yelled out.

Maya gaped at her. "He's dating Smackle."

"I know!" Riley squealed.

"I'll leave you two to talk." Lucas kissed Maya's cheek, gave Riley a disappointed look, then he walked out of Maya's room.

"What happened?" Maya sighed.

He stopped by my house
We were hanging out
He was wondering were you are
We went walking
We were just talking
Then he kissed me by his car

"Hey Riley. Wanna see something cool?"

"Sure. Let's take a walk."

Farkle and Riley walked down the street a bit then he pulled a set of keys out of his pocket and pressed a button. "Like my ride? My dad just got it for me for getting my permit. Isn't it awesome?" He grinned.

"Wow. It's really cool, Farkle!"

"Wanna take a drive?"

Riley bit her lip. "Um, maybe after you pass the test? No offense." She chuckled.

He shrugged and leaned against his brand new jet black Lincoln. "Fair enough. So where's Smackle? I went by her place, but she wasn't home. I wanted to show her my new baby." He grinned even wider.

Riley shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe studying at my mom's bakery. We're supposed to meet there tonight and you know Smackle always likes to be far ahead when we get there so maybe she's there."

Farkle nodded. "Makes sense. Well anyway I just wanted you to see my new car. I always pictured having a car like this one day. This car and you as my girlfriend was once a dream of mine. At least I got the car." He joked turning to face her. "And we're still friends, that's good enough for me."

"We'll always be friends, Farkle. I love you."

He smiled. "And I love you. Always."

Riley smiled back then before she could think about what was happening Farkle leaned in and so did she until their lips met in a sweet, soft kiss. He reached out to pull her closer and she kissed back, then she quickly pulled away. "Farkle! We can't!"

Farkle gulped and stared at her. "I know! I don't know what happened! I'm sorry!"

"You're dating Smackle!"

"I know!" He freaked out. "And she's great! I love her! I honestly don't know what just happened Riley!" He panicked.

"Well it can't happen again! I have to go!"

And now I'm sick inside
Yeah, it makes me wanna cry
I'm so sorry about last night
Yeah, It happened so fast
I wanted it to last
In the moment it felt so right
But now I'm sick inside

"I feel sick Maya!" Riley yelled plopping down on Maya's bed. "I feel awful!"

"You should!" Maya yelled. "You kissed back?! Why?! You don't even think about Farkle that way!" She snapped at her.

"I know! But I don't know! I liked kissing him! But Smackle- I just- I feel so sick!"

Maya took a deep breath. "I know you don't want to hear this, but you came to me for advice and hear it is, you have to tell Smackle what happened." Riley started crying. "I'm sorry, but you do! You have to tell her that you kissed and you feel awful and it will never happen again! Right?!"

"It will never happen again!"

"Don't tell me, tell Smackle."

Now I'm stuck with this feeling in the pit of my soul
Guess I should of had a little self control
I knew that it was wrong, I admit it
I wish there was a way that I could make it alright
I really wanna tell you that I put up a fight
But that would be a lie

"So we kissed.. I'm really sorry, Smackle. I did not want it to happen and neither did he, but it did and I feel horrible. I should have stopped it! I wish I could say I didn't like it, but I don't want to lie to you. I know it was wrong and I'm so so so so sorry!"

And now I'm sick inside
Yeah, it makes me wanna cry
I'm so sorry about last night
Yeah, It happened so fast
I wanted it to last
In the moment it felt so right
But now I'm sick inside

"It will never happen again. I promise. I'm so sorry I hurt you, I hurt our friendship. It felt so right in the moment, but I know it was wrong. I know it was stupid and I feel so sick inside like I wanna die. I'm sorry."

It had been a week since Riley told Smackle and Smackle still refused to talk to Riley or Farkle. She only talked to Maya, Lucas, or Zay as long as they didn't talk about the two traitors or what happened that night.

"Smackle, please say something! Yell at me! I deserve it! Scream at me all you want!"

Now I'm sick inside
Yeah, It makes me wanna cry
In the moment it felt so right

"Smackle really wants both of you to leave her alone." Maya told them when she pulled them over to the side. "Just give her time."

I'm just a girl who
Kissed a boy who
Is in love with you

"I should have never kissed you." Farkle said shaking his head. "I love her and I hurt her because of some fleeting moment."

Riley sighed. "I know you love her. I should have never kissed back. We messed up."

Farkle frowned. "Why did you?"

"What?"

"I expected you to push me away or I don't know not lean in, slap me, something."

Riley looked up into his blue eyes. "I don't know either. I just know I love you and I want you to be happy." She frowned. "And now you never will because of me." She looked down at her shows sadly.

Farkle lifted her chin to look into her big brown eyes. "Hey, it's not all your fault. I leaned in first. I'm sorry Riley. I put you in an awful spot with our friends. I made you feel like a horrible person, but you're not. You're amazing. And I love you too."

Riley leaned up and kissed his lips.