Bittersweet [ɴᴀᴅᴇɴ]

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| BITTERSWEET | chapter twelve

| you make me feel complete,

oh, it's so bittersweet |

nessa's pov

jaden left the studio and immediately regret not answering his question. of course i love the boy, but what good would it do if i told him that when everything in my life is ruined.

and being with him can ruin it ever more.
i tweeted something just to let jaden know, i know a lot of people will think i'm saying sorry about the situation but it's social media they make uo assumptions so i'm used to it.

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tiktokroom #nessabarrett saying sorry, maybe about the situation going down? ☕️

madslewis she isn't sorry she's been doing it for MONTHS
- joshrichards ^^

user12 ness bby you don't have to feel sorry, mads is just mad she can't pull the way you do
- user11 exactly
- user12 great minds think alike
- user11 YUP

user90 hoe

user76 no one likes you ness

user26 can she stfu

i never felt so alone in my life ever before, although josh and i were toxic, at least i had him by my side. jaden and i couldn't be public but i still had him by my side in private.

now i'm alone, celebrating the 'bittersweet' release by myself in my apartment on my bed with hot chocolate.

even if i fucked up with mads, josh and social media i would've still had jaden. but i fucked that up too. a simple, 'i do love you' would've avoided me being alone. but i had to do shit the hard way.

i picked up my phone and began typing an apology to jaden

jadenn <3

i know you lowk kind of
hate me but i'm sorry
i do love you & i told
you many times b4
i was just stressed about
my music and thought saying
i love you to you would
make everything worse
i'm sorry

first. i don't hate you
second, i know you said you
loved me before but feelings
change just like your feelings
for josh changed so i needed
another confirmation
third, apology accepted

we good?

mhm

thank the lord, now come
over bc i don't wanna
spend the release party
by myself

me either
coming rn

a few minutes later and jaden is here. we went back to my room and laid down, cuddling. although everything is fucked up in the social media scene we still had each other. our career might be ruined but we were still by each other's side.

and it made me realize.

but before i could tell him, he already said it. "maybe i'm okay with running my career for you." jaden says, kissing my forehead. i smile.

"you're the only person i'd do it for." i say, causing him to blush.

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jadenhossler and we'd say, it was worth it <3

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