Kageyama's Diary

one.

Dear Diary,

This is stupid, so incredibly stupid and I still don't understand why would Sugawara-senpai thinks giving me this was a good idea. He said that it would help me somehow. I don't really understand him sometimes, but I guess he has a reason. Suga is really smart, so he probably knows something or whatever.

I guess the only thing I can do now is just write on this fucking thing.

So let's start.

It's been two months since Hinata started dating that girl from class, fifty-nine days. Yes, I counted, no, I don't care. I never remember her name, not that I care to remember anyways, it was all so sudden with them. Hinata had never spoken about the girl, never even mentioned her once in his whole life, one day she just appeared at practice, kissing Hinata at any given moment and holding his hand as they walked out of practice together.

It's also been two months since Hinata and I practiced until night-time.

He never has time anymore, he always has something to do with that girl. She never leaves his side, always there with him. And I can see how much Hinata likes that, always smiling when she's around, always laughing with her, admiring her because if I'm honest the girl isn't even bad-looking.

It's annoying, really fucking annoying.

And I never get time with him anymore, everytime I ask him if he wants to practice or even eat lunch with me and Shittyshima and Yamaguchi, he never says yes anymore. he can never practice, he always goes with her for lunch, always.

It's not like he doesn't try though, he always invites me with them for lunch, always asks me to tag along after practice. But she is always there to tell him that it's a "them" thing, or that he wants to spend some alone time with Hinata, and Hinata always agrees to it and leaves with a smile on his face. She keeps Hinata all to herself, even if I was his friend first.

Did he even consider me a friend?

Maybe to Hinata, all I am is just another teammate, just another one of the many he has. I'm sure that he doesn't even think of me as a friend. I wish he did. But to me, Hinata is the first real friend I've had, the one who actually stands me. I'm greatful for that or whatever, but now we barely spend time together. It's all because of that stupid girl.

I can't stand that girl, and I just wish that Hinata would leave her sometimes. But he's happy with her and I guess I respect that, even if I can't stand her or her annoying voice.

I think I remember her name, and I think I know her from somewhere. Maybe I saw her around in class.

I think her name is Aiko.

I hate Aiko and her pretty name and pretty face.

Goodbye? I guess?

- Kageyama Tobio