Kageyama's Diary

nine.

Dear Diary,

I like Hinata.

I think there was always something inside me that knew it was that, the boy infuriated me since the first day we met, which was normal for me already. But Hinata always had something different and I never wanted to acknowledge it, he made me feel different, less distant from other people.

After what had happened in middle school, I never wanted to get close to anyone again. I felt completely alone, my team didn't feel like a team, and aside from them, I didn't have anyone else around me. It felt as if everyone else had failed me.

Hinata made me realize, it was me who failed them.

I never wanted to do that again.

"King of The Court" is a nickname I used to love and I would wear it proudly, but then I couldn't bear even hearing the word King.

Hinata gave it a new meaning.

Because to him, I was still that, the "King of The Court", but not the same way I used to be. It was different, a good different.

Hinata always makes me feel good about myself.

I fell in love with volleyball and the team thanks to him, even if at first, our fighting almost got us put of it. I think we changed that a lot, the bickering was still there but it was light and playful. It feels weird to even say it like that.

I

Like

Hinata.

That's terrifying, it didn't really feel like I did until I found out what Aiko had done to him. And then I never wanted to be away from him, then Hinata had nightmares and slept in the same bed as me. When did things change this much?

Then, it was Hinata's lips.

I've never kissed anyone before and I think I never want to kiss anyone else but him, that is also something that feels weird to say. My stomach feels weird even saying it. But it's a good weird.

Does that even make sense?

I can't stop thinking if Hinata feels the same or not. Sometimes it feels like he does but then his eyes look sad or worried. There's a few seconds there that Hinata doesn't look like himself, sad and pale. It hurts to see him like that, just as it hurt to see him cry over Aiko. He didn't deserve that.

What foes Hinata feel about her now? Does he still think about her? Does he still feel something for her? Are they still dating?

I have so many questions to ask Hinata, but I don't think I'll ever get an answer to them. If her name is brought up Hianta turns quiet. I think he doesn't feel like talking about her.

I hope he never does again.

Is that wrong?

- Kageyama Tobio