I was confined in a hospital for me losing too many blood. A week of convincing the principal, depression, cutting, bully, I finally have the guts to confront those two idiots.
I feel so different in this uni. Its like I'm an outcast or something and I don't think I belong in here. People treat me like trash as if I'm dead or something. No one cares about me because no one likes me...
I sat in a table in the corner where usually no students sit for lunch, just students like me sits there. Eating my lunch alone in that dark corner of the dining room makes me think that I shouldn't be breathing. I want to end my life right now because I wouldn't matter to anyone , not even Tessa and Ben.
I stood up from my seat and began to gather some courage to face Louise and Mae. I went to their lunch table which made me sweat a lot. I'm scared to think that they might punch me again.
"Uhmm... hey Louise... i-" I was cut in between my sentence by Louise's hand pulling my hair.
"What do you fucking need?" She asked agressively while pulling my hair harder than usual. She rolled her eyes and let go my hair from her grip.
"LISTEN I JUST NEED TO TALK TO YOU AND IF ANY TIME YOU PULL MY HAIR OR PUNCH ME, I WILL BREAK ALL YOUR NECKS LIKE A FREAKING TWIG!!!" I spat at them leaving the both in awe.
I quietly went to my next class so I can just finish this day and go home.
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Class finally finished and I was on my way on going to Starbucks to get my usual Vanilla with Raspberry Syrup Frappe. I quietly sat on my table waiting for my order and realised it was just a week before the concert. With all these craze happening, I didn't seem to care about 1D for now.
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I went back home to do my usual night routine and went to my bathroom to cut yet again. Seeing my blood ooze out, I now try for not so deep cuts and I now take some pills to keep me sane for some reason.
I went to my bed and saw myself in the mirror. "I look so fat..." I whispered to myself even though I'm very skinny and yes I am anorexic. From then on I went to sleep not bothering turning off the lights
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Hello again!! I think i will update twice a day from now on... Im so excited for the coming 1D concert tho!!! And thank you guys for 100 reads for two days so i would like to express my appreciation by writing this chapter!! Thank you again and Please take a moment to Comment, Favorite, Vote!! This chapter is so short i can't even sorry :\ :(
-b.m.b xx
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