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Me: "I think if I were to have a daughter I'd name her luna"

Him: " luna? That's crazy, that's a name I always thought was pretty, it's a really popular name over here where are you from? If I may ask"

You and I had been talking for a bit now and we're slowly but surely getting to know one another. Though I didn't know where you lived and whatnot. I still felt like I knew you.

Maybe we did know each other

In our past lives and now we're meeting again.

I'm not a very bubbly person but I guess that was the pro of having social media. I could be not so shy and more bubbly and forward. Which by the way, I am quite the opposite in person.

Me: " Yea, I think it's a pretty name but I feel like everyone names their dog luna and i refuse to name my daughter after a dog....Sadly, I live in Texas. Very cheap to live here but very very hot. Where do you live though? I feel like you live in Cali or even Canada"

I was always typing and typing. Like I said I didn't talk to many people, let alone text anyone so he was really my only interaction so yes, I did talk a lot but I  felt comfortable enough and assured.

Him: "well actually I live in Romania and I actually am very surprised you live in America because you're always awake when I'm awake"

Me: "Romania ?? What the hell. Isn't it like 4am over there? Romania? How even that's such a random place to hear about here."

Me being me, I typed out my thoughts and sent away. I was in shock for a good ten minutes on how far away he was and out of all places. Romania. You always found this cute, when I would type away my thoughts and send them to you. I still do it and you still think it's cute to this day. It's something I appreciated because other people usually got annoyed by it or at least I felt like they did.

We texted and texted. I spent my days staying up late and you spent your days staying up late too. I thought it was crazy how magnetic we felt with one another. I found myself daydreaming about our conversations being in person. I hope you did the same.

The love you had for certain things and the passion you had for them made me feel so in awe. The way we discussed any topic we could think of made my day and made life interesting. I knew from the moment you genuinely made me really laugh out loud. Over text. I knew that was it, that you had to be mine and I had to meet you.

I didn't realize it then, but it was going to be way more harder than that.

Easier said than done...

I didn't realize what kind of life you had in Romania. All I realized was that I was falling for you and you were falling for me and I wanted to keep it that way. I wanted it to feel more real by seeing you.