Find Me (Bellarke's fanfic)

1. May we meet again

BELLAMY

"May we meet again", I said walking towards Camp Jaha, leaving Clarke behind.

Some part of me knew that was something she needed, but still my cheek was burning from her lips. Where would she go? How were we supposed to accept the fact she wasn't coming back?

I kept walking towards the camp, and I found my sister running in my direction, she looked worried.

"Bellamy, where is Clarke? We need a healer", she asked.

She left me. She left us.

"She's gone", was all I managed to say, my eyes placed on the ground. I just kept walking. I needed some space. From my sister, from everyone. I needed time to think.

Octavia walked towards me and pulled my arm with such strength I groaned, she made me face her, her eyes burning with rage.

"What do you mean she's gone?", she glanced at me so furious I thought she was going to punch me anytime.

"She left the camp, went into the woods", I snapped at her.

For a moment I took a look at the direction Clarke had left, hoping I'd still see that blonde head of hers, but instead I found myself starring at the ordinary woods.

Please be safe, I thought.

"I can't believe this", Octavia said turning her hands into fists, "I can't believe she left us!", now she was yelling, "after everything she's done, she leaves! After getting everyone out that freaking mountain! After... After killing all those people...", she looked at me in horror, "After killing Maya", my sister glanced at Jasper who was now close enough to hear our little conversation.

"We killed all that people, Octavia. I did it too, remember? She's gone, get over it", I gave her a cold look and turned around so I would find my way to enter the ark.

"She's a coward", Octavia said in clenched teeth.

There was no way I was letting people think she was a coward. After everything she had done to save them. To save our people.

"Don't you dare saying she's a coward, Octavia", I warned her turning around so I was facing her again. My fists were clenched tightly, my nails digging into my palms.

"Well Bellamy, that's what she is. She just goes away and runs from everything, is that what you call being a leader? We are not cowards", she took a step closer to me.

"She never asked for being a leader, she never asked for any of this to happen!", I yelled at her. I was furious. After everything Clarke had done, Octavia would always find a way of making her the bad guy. "She let you all out that mountain, remember?", I turned around so I was now looking at everyone, "you're all here thanks to Clarke Griffin. She made mistakes, she's not innocent, but who is? She left because she couldn't live with everything she did to get her people back. To get you back, and we owe her. We owe her at least our respect. So If someone doesn't agree with that well safe your useless opinion to yourself and think about how you'd be death if it wasn't for her!", my voice cracked.

Everyone kept quiet.

I knew they were aware of Clarke's sacrifice; and not only hers but mine, and Raven's and Octavia's. We all worked together to get everyone back, and maybe that would haunt us for the rest of our lives.

I couldn't bare it anymore. I kept walking, not looking at all those who had their eyes on me. I needed to be alone, so I just entered the ark and I kept walking until I found my bed. I threw myself at it, trying to forget about everything. I put my hands over my eyes and I could still hear her voice, I could still feel her.

I couldn't help but wonder where would she be, what'd she be thinking. I needed to see her again. I couldn't live thinking I'd never get the chance to look into her blue eyes and fight with her stubbornnes.

I knew I'd see her again. I knew it was our fate to see each other again, but a part of me was hopless and I couldn't help it. I needed her here. We all did.

"May we meet again", her last words were echoing in my head.

We will meet again Clarke, we will.