I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't feel the same anymore.
What the fuck is wrong with me.
I went to surprise y/n as we haven't seen each other in a while.
She looked so happy to see me. I tried to show her how much I missed her too but I don't know what I'm feeling right now.
She noticed.
She noticed I'm not acting the same.
Shit.
I don't know what to do anymore.
"I just need to clear my head."
I say in my head as I lie there in bed next the y/n who is asleep.
I went to the playground near here and sat on the benches.
I couldn't help but cry.
I needed to let it out.
It was all bottled up inside me.
"Noah?" I hear
It scared me but I turned around and it was the person who I wish didn't come.
Y/n
"I don't think we should be together anymore" I quietly say.
" what?" Her soft voice said. I could hear her crying so I couldn't look at her pretty face.
She got up and walked away.
"Fuck" I mumble.
I didn't know what to do. All these thoughts running through my mind.
Do i not have feelings for her?
Is it me?
Is it not the right time?
I don't know.
"Do I actually love her"
Fuck what am I saying I do love her.
I run my hands through my hair and break down again.
Why did I do that.
I get a taxi back to my hotel and went to bed but still couldn't sleep.
I lie there.
Numb.
I can't imagine what y/n's doing right now.
What am I doing
I'm a mess
Maybe it's good that we're not together.
