more than bestfriends

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-y/n

why cant you just forget the feelings you have for people? its hard to watch someone else be happy with that person who you cant seem to let go. yes i cant stop thinking about mattia , but i dont know how to tell him. he seems genuinely happy with vic and i dont want to ruin that.

what will happen if we dont work out? i just ruined someone else happiness. jackson is so more than amazing but it just doesnt feel the way i want to. it's because im not the rest of me isnt being honest.

every chance i get to forget mattia , something always seems to remind me of him. all because i wont be fucking honest.

its a week before we go on our l.a trip. honestly i dont feel like going anymore, but i have to because i spent money on my ticket and i bought a bunch of new clothes to wear there. plus my other friends are expecting me so i have no choice but to go.

" y/n , y/n , i said you may leave class." my teacher snapps me out of my thoughts. she probably thinks im going crazy. " im so sorry," i apologize before grabbing my things and walking out of the classroom.

i walk to my locker and put away my books and grab the ones i need for any homework.

i pair of hands creep up around my waist and i tense up. " babe relax its just me," jackson says jn my ears. i become relaxed again and turn around. " hi baby , you okay?" he asked me.

" yeah , i got caught daydreaming by the teacher." i chuckle while closing my locker. " thats why you came out of class late , they are waiting for you outside." he informs me.

he grabs my hand and walks me to the group. " hey y/n, what took you so fucking long?" kairi punches me in the stomach but in a playful way. " dude i bet she got caught daydreaming again" alejandro laughs.

" ale how tf did you know that?" i chuckle. " what the hell where you thinking about this time? last time it was about some boy." alvaro says and i pause.

" i got hungry again and remember i had food in the fridge waiting for me to eat it." i grin knowing damn well im lying.

" wait did your dad make that amazing curry chicken?" mattia asked while looking at me.

" yeah he did , had some last night." i answer him. " please tell me you didnt finish it all?" his eyes widen.

" dude i literally said i have leftovers at home , hopefully no one ate it." i roll my eyes at the thought of celeste eating it.

" we driving to your house right now , we can go to the mall after." robert exclaims. all the boys start running to their cars and me , vic , and jackson continues to walk but we burst into laughter.

" woah who knew kairi can run so fucking fast?" victoria says in between her laughter. " thats what i said the first time i saw him run , i couldn't even believe my eyes." i laugh as well.

" its good to see you happy girl , it looks amazing on you." she compliments. considering ever since she got back ive been struggling to keep a smile on my face but today seems different.

" thank you , its all to the mf right here and my bestfriends ofc." i smile at her.

we finally reach the cars and i get into mine with mattia , alejandro, and robert. i practically drove them to school because they begged me. the others drove in separate cars.

" okay so are we seriously going to my house first?" i asked while looking at my lap. no one answered but when i looked up it was only mattia in the car.

" where are the other two?" i asked afraid of what will happen with the two of us alone in a car. the last time we were alone together, we almost kissed while both of us were in a relationship.