more than bestfriends

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1 month later
....

me and mattia have finally made it to our third date. the first two were amazing and i will never forget them. we went to this fancy restaurant for our first then for our second we went to the aquarium.

today we decided to just go to the movies and drive around.

" im fuckin , no fucked up," mattia shouted as a barked a laugh as we listened to overtime by bryson tiller. " no because why the fuck did-"

" wonder where you at, I just might hold you for ransom"mattia sang with laughter.

" aw man, he just bought a Balmain" i sang while glancing at him. his eyes were pierced shut while he dies of laughter.

" get out of the fucking lane fucking minivan fuck ," i scream at the road and mattia fucking barks. " its a fucking merging lane."

mattia laughed so hard and i just shake my head as i pass the minivan. " bruh switch this," mattia yelled as he presses the skip button on my phone.

i pull into chick-fi-la drive thru as the intro for always and forever by bryson tiller. mattia pokes my shoulder excitedly.

i rolled my eyes , smiling.

im freaking driving

"is it the right time, babe?" bryson sang through the radio.

"i wish you had feelings like mine, baby
feels like I'm still just a homie
actin' like you don't want me
no, shorty just don't do it for me
you do it for me." mattia sings in the passenger seat , feeling the emotions from the lyrics.

...

" hi can i get a box of twenty piece nuggets and a sprite and pepsi?" i ordered through the speaker.

" would that be all for you?"

" yes ma'am," i told the lady. " ok your total would be 10.91."

i look at mattia who was reaching for his pocket. i smack his arm and he looks at me confused.

i pulled up to the window and grab my wallet.

" why'd you hit me?" he whines. " your not paying fucktard,"

he rolled his eyes still reaching his hand out with 11 dollars.

" keep your fucking ,inferior ripped, crusty ass money mattia." i retorted and looked offended.

he retreated his hand and but his lip , looking at me funny.

" thats what tf i thought," i snapped. " your always trynna pay for shit."

i gave the lady my money and she handed me a receipt and change. i looked at mattia who was silently laughing , nearly in fucking tears.

" whats so god damn funny?"

" you get so mad-" he said shaking his head. " now i can imagine every moment where i annoyed you through text so perfectly,"

i laughed at his goofiness and pulled up to the second window.

" 20 piece nuggets and two drinks?" the man at the window asked. " yes sir."

i turned backed to mattia who was still dissolving in his own laughter.

i couldn't help but to laugh at him. " here you go ma'am" the guy at the window hands me the bag and two cups. i put them in the cup holder and pulled out of the drive thru.

" why are you still goddam laughing?"

he started slapping his thigh dying , as he shaked his head. " i- i dont know," he wheezed and i started barking a laugh.

i looked away from him for two seconds and look back. for some reason as we made eye contact it made that shit even funnier. mattia started coughing and laughing. tears started falling out of my eyes but i quickly wiped them to see the road.

" y/n st-stop it," mattia stated looking at me with the "👀" eyes. we went for another round of laughter and couldn't breathe.

" ok ok shhhhhh," i said tapping his leg and he threw his head back. " mattia omfg stop laughing." i said trying to catch my breathe. " y/n i cant,"

" woooo," i fanned my face as we start to calm down. " that was..." mattia voice cuts off. " i dont know."

i pulled into a park were the sun will set for us to eat. mattia grabs the bag and i get the drinks and lock the car door.

....

" so whats your plan after we graduate?" mattia asked me. " im gonna go to college to become a registered nurse," i answer shoving a nugget in my mouth. " what about you?"

" i dont really know , im just hoping that this social media thing works out." mattia shrugs.

" babe look at me," i use my hand to lift his chin to look at me. "i know school isn't for everyone but i think its safer for you to stay on top of school you know."

he smiles at up at me , " what? im serious matti. think about it , you can go and get a degree in business. be your own manger instead of paying others to do it for you amd helps you save money."

" what if i go to college with you? you can always help me too," he states. " no matter where we are i'll always help you," i tell him.

" come here," he pulls the sleeve of my hoodie and grabs my face. i close my eyes as his lips press against mine. my hand was still under his chin as he sits up and lays me back on the blanket. he groaned as i tugged on his hair , allowing him to slip in his tounge.

he lays on my chest and i can feel his heart thumping. i pulled away and our forehead press together as we look at each other. " you called me babe," he giggles in my chest.

" oh shut the fuck up," i roll my eyes with a smile.

" your like so soft for me now. before you were so mean and a big bully." he laughs and pulls me to sit up.

" dont get used to it , im just playing nice." i play with his hair as he lays between my legs.

we enjoy the silence for a bit and be grabs my hands. my nails are done with french tips of each shade of brown. " can i ask you something?" he looks up at me.

" anything,"

" why do you love me?"

" i love you because you take me places no one else can. everytime i am with you i feel like home , its just this indescribable feeling. you take me as i am and im beyond grateful for that. its so hard for me to put you into words because i love you in ways that i have never loved anyone else."

i push the words i failed to for over two years now out.