Leave the door open

Love is gone

Four years ago...

In the middle of the loud music, Seungcheol grab everyone's attention. "Hey! Hey! Hear me out!" Everyone, even from the other side of the room stop from whatever they were doing when they hear SeungCheol's voice. By instinct, Seungkwan who is in charge of music lower it down and give the spotlight to Seungcheol. "Let's share a toast for our Best Producer and Song-writer 2017, Woozi. Our Lee Ji Hoon." Ji Hoon who silently sitting on Soonyoung's side look at Scoups smiling. They were celebrating his win. His heart is full of joy being recognized and also being with the people who keeps believing on his talent. He raised his glass, Soonyoung on his side do the same, he was forced to stand up when everyone asks for his short ment. He cleared his throat, still overwhelmed by the attention he's receiving.

"Everyone, this will be our start. I promised, the next time that I will be receiving an award, it will be you as the singers. This will be our start. Cheers!" everyone hail from their seat calling his name nonstop and gulp down their own drinks. The party continued until dawn. It is already four in the morning when the bosses starts going home. That is the only time that Ji Hoon and the others can go. Walking back to their apartment, Ji Hoon and Soonyoung locked hands while feeling the cold breeze from the midnight air.

"Jihoon." Soonyoung call him with a sweet voice. It always feels good when Soonyoung calls him like that.

"I promise, one day, your dream will come true. I will make sure that we will go to that one stage, holding hands befor receiving an award." Jihoon stops from walking because of what he heard. Soonyoung will always fool around but when they were alone, he's always this serious. He make sure that whatever  he feels, he's transparent to him.

"Thank you. We will make it someday." he smile so big before he cupped Soonyoung's face for a kiss. He plant a quick kiss when he sees no one is around. "Let's take it slowly. One step at a time." Jihoon pat Soonyoung's cheeks and drag him back home. At some point, he feels guilty. He was working hard with the others. They have been together, making music, being through all the working nights. But he was recognized alone. The song that was supposedly written for the debut of Soonyoung's band was given to different singer.

After taking a shower, Soonyoung lie down beside him. They've been together since second year college, and known each other since highschool. Everyone around them know their relationship aside from the bosses of their company. When everyone where fighting for the room to use from their dorm, they let them have the small basement from the apartment to be taken. Half of it was a studio where, Jihoon been working and the room was shared by him and Soonyoung. He feels Soonyoung hand snaked around his waist. "Don't ever feel guilty. Maybe that song was meant for them not us. We were proud of you." fiercing the guilt feeling inside him, Soonyoung hit it on the spot. He did not need to open it up with him nor with everyone. They knew his feelings. Tears run down through his cheeks.

He turn around and buried his face on Soonyoung's chest trying his best not to muffled a loud cry. "I'm sorry." he sniffs. "I don't know how to face the others and tell them how sorry I am. I am not good with words." he wiped his tears and look at Soonyoung in the eyes. This is the compromise they've made when they're starting their relationship. Soonyoung wants him to be transparent with how he feels. It is still hard for him with others but he gets comfortable with Soonyoung. "I feel like I've cheated on them."

Soonyoung chuckle from his choice of word. "Yah, no one even think that way." Soonyoung play the tip of his hair, smiling. "We are proud of you. We know how hard you worked for it. You deserve it." when another tears about to burst from his eyes, Soonyoung quickly dry it out using his lips. Kissing his eyes and the tips of his nose. "You know I hate it when you're crying." he position himself to reach his lips and give it a soft kiss.  "And as I promised, we will make it happen. Your dream, everyone's dream. You were just one step ahead. We will get there. With you and the others. This is our start. So don't feel sorry." a deep kiss on his lips make his heart at ease. He hugged Soonyoung tight and fall asleep on his chest. This is his home. This will always be his home. Soonyoung.