To have and to Hold

A kind of Homecoming

Rachel found herself reluctantly obeying Adam, and going to bed. Her stubborn pride made her decide she would not go after him into his study. If he didn't want to speak to her, fine!

But as she lay in bed, she spent most of it just tossing and turning. Her mind was going over the horrible day, and not understanding quite how it had ended this way

Why could Adam not see she that she had been left with no real choice in the matter? When Trudy had phoned her up asking for help, Rachel was only to aware of the kind of treatment she might have suffered at Gary's hands. Which was why she knew it had been of the utmost urgency to get to her, and try and help her. How could she have refused, or done anything else?

she had thought it had been alright at the time with Gary not there. All she had wanted to do was make sure Trudy was ok. Adam didn't have a clue what it felt like being a victim of an abusive partner, if he had perhaps he might have been at least a little more sympathetic and understanding she found herself thinking resentfully Anyway she didn't think Gary would come back so soon, she had hoped to get Trudy out of the place before he returned, it was just lousy timing

Rachel found herself wondering what had gone through Adam's head when he had seen Gary with her like that? When he had him up against the wall the look on Adam's face had alarmed her a little, she had never seen him so angry, she had been scared that if he had started punching Gary, he might never had stopped.

Which was why she had intervened

Of course she could understand he had been worried for her and the baby, and even she realised the folly of her actions when Gary had arrived on the scene. Her first thoughts of what he might do to her and that he could harm her child. Which had given her the strength to try and fight him of.

But she wasn't sure how successful she would have been if Adam hadn't arrived on the scene. And she found herself having to reluctantly admit that Adam had a point, and she couldn't really blame him for being upset with her.

She lay in bed waiting, almost hoping he would come to her. But the hours stretched on like forever and a cold despair set in. She knew she had really upset him with her accusations about only caring about his business and she suddenly felt a little ashamed.

But it had been a reactionary response, and the only thing she could throw at him at the time, because he was trying to make her feel bad about helping Trudy, and making her feel guilty about not caring about their child.

Unable to bear it any more, and needing to talk to him, and try explain to him, she got out of bed. Outside dawn was breaking, bringing a glimmer of blue into the dark sky as Rachel went in search for Adam, hoping he had not left the house.

She found him in his study, he was slouched in his chair, not very comfortable looking, but sleeping, an empty glass sat at his desk in front of him, making Rachel wonder how much he had drank. And the thought she had reduced him to this state made her feel worse

Mustering up boldness, she wasn't exactly feeling, she approach him. Putting her hand on his shoulder and gently shaking him awake "Adam?"

He woke with a start, seeming a little confused by his surroundings, then his brown eyes focused on her for a few moments, and his mind started to clear of sleep, recalling the events of the night before.

He moved and sat up in the chair in an attempt to make his stiff limbs more comfortable, and shake of the grogginess and the slight headache he was feeling

"Are you alright?" he then asked anxiously when he seen the tense expression on Rachel's face, suddenly worried that Gary had hurt her physically someway, and she was suffering from some sort of after affects. He realised a little guiltily he shouldn't have really had a go at her either the night before, after all she had been through.