By My Side(Book 2 to The Lynchs)

Chapter 17

I sat on the bed waiting for Ross to come back for the night but he was taking forever in the bathroom. Just when I was about to fall to sleep Ross walks out but instead of laying on the bed he takes a seat next to me.

"Jasmine you know I love you right?" He asked softly as I felt knots fill my stomach.

"Ross what is going on?" I asked thinking that everything I was thinking about before was coming true. Maybe he was going to tell me it was over, that becoming a parent was too much for him.

"Jasmine I love you and our child very much" Ross says with his voice shaking up. He hides his face in his hands "Riker told me that R5 is going to be touring in a few weeks, maybe next week" He says his voice becoming deep.

I stare at him and knew that when they tour it wasn't for a few months but almost a year "Cant it just wait a while?" I asked him as I jumped out of the bed to go stand in front of him.

"Riker says that our manger wants it to be as soon as possible since we are being the main talk of the world right now. He wants us to rise and I was thinking the same thing" Ross says softly as he looks at me his eyes filled with tears.

"Ross but then you wont be here at all" I said feeling myself get tears stuck on my throat "And the doctors have told me that I cant travel cause of the children" I said as I felt the tears spill out.

"Jasmine dont you think I dont know that!" Ross said raising his voice "I want to be here for every appointment and when you give birth but I can't cause this is the only way I will ever make money"

I look at him in horror feeling defeated "I dont know what to do now" I said softly "You are all going to be gone while I will be stuck here" I said.

"I will try to come to you any time I have a free time, the tour will only be seven months this time I promise, no longer" Ross says placing his hands on my shoulders.

I felt my heart break at the mention that he will be gone for seven months. I was four and a half months pregnant "Ross you wont be here for the children's first few weeks of living!" I yell at the top of my lungs.

"You dont think I dont know that! I want to hold them and I'm trying to compromise here Jasmine but you are putting all the blame on me" Ross whines as he sighs.

I stare at him with wide eyes and feel myself choke on my own tears "I want you to be there when the children are born Ross and don't think I'm not happy for you starting again with your tour but I need you right now" I said as I went to held his hand.

"I cant turn back now Jasmine, the manger has everything set, tour dates and venues. Everything is ready for us and all we have to do is get on buses and planes and then we are off" Ross says with his voice full of disapproval and sadness.

"I've been told before by Riker that we were going to tour again soon but I never got the details until today, he and everyone else are just as upset of leaving but we can't do anything. I was told before we left for Canada and I was all in for it" Ross said even more.

"Is that why you were acting so weird around me? Is that why you wouldn't even touch me or look in my direction?" I asked feeling as if I was hit with a bullet.

"I didn't want to hurt you Jasmine, I was trying to help you" He said "I wanted to make sure that she I was gone that you would get used to it that you would be okay"

I felt anger fill me as those words came out of his mouth "You expect me to be okay with my husband ignoring me for days and all of it just not to hurt me" I said as I run my fingers through my hair "That is a load of bullshít right there" I said pointing at him.

"Understand me Jasmine I wanted you to be okay" Ross says.

"Well Ross I wasn't okay at all! I was miserable and for a moment I thought you were cheating on me!" I yelled as I walked out the room heading for the stairs until Ross grabbed my wrist.

"Jasmine I will never cheat on you and please I am trying to make things better. Stop blaming me for everything that happens wrong in this relationship" Ross said loudly.

I instantly feel heat fill my body "Ross I'm not blaming you at all I'm just saying that what you did was wrong! Why couldn't you just tell me?" I asked softly

"CAUSE I WANTED TO AVOID THIS FIGHT!" Ross said his face turning red and a few tears roll down his cheeks.

I could only stare at him with a shock expression and felt bad for everything that just happen. "I'm ....I'm sorry I " I couldn't speak.

Ross sighed and wrapped an arm around me pulling me close to him "I'm sorry for this, I just really don't want to leave you" He said as he rest his chin on my head.

I smelled the scent of him and closed my eyes "If you want to go off and tour then go do it. You enjoy doing it and I dont want to be the reason why you stop living your dream" I said into his chest hearing the soft beat of his heart.

"Thank you and I promise I will try to be here the most I can" He said softly "I will try to be here for you"

With those words I felt my hopes getting up and I knew that it was wrong. I felt that everything was about to break everything we worked so hard on.