Jiraiya x Reader Stories(Smut)

After Two Years

This was a request. It ended up being pretty long.
Reader is Naruto's caretaker and become so very young. Due to the circumstances of how she became his caretaker Jiraiya was close to her as the bonded over the loss of loved ones and appreciating the legacy they left behind. When reader confessed her love to Jiraiya right before he left with Naruto for training he rejected her as he sees himself too old for her. But during his time away from her he realized he made a horrible mistake and tries to get her back but reader is seeing someone...
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There's a gentle tapping on your window. It comes with a jolt of excitement. You run to the window and flip it open. You smile widely at the awaiting toad. She's a funny little thing. Bulky in build and no bigger than both of your hands together can hold. She's a mango orange with dark grey stripes down the length of her body.

"Oh okay. You glutton." You roll your eyes.

You grab the small cage of crickets and grab one out with a pair of tweezers. As soon as it was out, the tongue of the toad shot out. She almost grabbed your tweezers right out of your hands.

"Careful! You're gonna choke one of these days." You scold the amphibian.

She just looked at you with a pout before throwing up the scroll she had. You take it an tentatively thank the creature. She croaked before poofing away in a bloom of smoke. This has been a ritual almost every month for two years. The spot of orange in your window was the highlight of your month as it meant a letter from your only living family left in the world. You asked Naruto to keep in contact when he could. With the assurance that the toads won't be in danger for the correspondents, he was happy to. You open the scroll. What kind of trouble could your dear nephew could be getting into now? To your surprise, you recognize the fluid writing of Jiraiya, not the fast scribbles Naruto. You barely read the first word before shutting it. You inhale deeply.

Things between you and Jiraiya were left... weird. He hadn't contacted you at all for a whole two years! Now he reaches out? You sigh. That difficult man. Why do you like him again? It's so difficult. He's difficult! He's so infuriating sometimes but you love that about him.

Sigh.

You confessed.

Over two years ago you finally told Jiraiya that you love him. You remembered how he stared at you. His eyes wide with surprise. His body went a little tense. You moved in while his guard was down. You held onto his shirt. You forced him down with a tug and pressed your lips to his. His hands held your waist and he kissed you back. Then he pushed you away. His expression changed to be neutral and cold... and pained. Underneath his neutral exterior was so much hurt. You could see it in his eyes. But he was pushing you away, not matter how much it seemed to hurt him.

"I'm sorry..." He began.

"No!" You interrupted right away. You clung onto him and refused to let his eyes go. "I don't care! I know what you're going to say and no! I know I'm young! But I know what I feel."

You search his eyes for any sign of agreement. You want to see the regret and pain fade from his face. Where he would then hold you against him and hold your lips in a deep kiss against his.

"I know how you feel." You whisper. "You feel the same. I know you do."

Jiraiya shook his head. He said your name in a way that already was pulling on your heart. It was quiet and even. It sounds like he's retraining himself. Or speaking to you like you are a child again. "I'm old enough to be your father. I watched you grow up... I-!" Jiraiya cringed like he was in pain. It was hurting him to say this. "You... You need someone your own age."