Jiraiya x Reader Stories(Smut)

The Kiss of Life

Warning: Death of the reader. Suicidal/depressed reader. Unrequited love. Author gon Make you cry.
Spoiler: Takes place after Pain fight. A he lives au with consequences.
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It was hard to watch. You stand in the doorway of the hospital, silently watching the scene before you. Tsunade sitting on the ledge of Jiraiya's bed. She's rubbing her face and took in a deep breath. She's barely keeping it together. Not that you blame her. It is difficult to watch someone you love die. You know that pain too. Because... you love Jiraiya too.

For most of your life, you've been in love with him. There's just something about Jiraiya that has you smitten. He's kind, smart, brave, funny, and handsome. What's there not to love? But... it's so complicated. You know he loves someone else... and you love what you have with him as his friend. You never wanted to ruin that relationship by confessing. Because you know he would reject you and it would hurt too much. You probably won't be able to face him again from both embarrassment and the pain of rejection.

You never felt good enough. You aren't good enough. Jiraiya couldn't love someone like you. You don't feel pretty enough. You aren't on the level of the women he asks out... nor the woman he's already in love with. You aren't strong or brave like her either. You don't have any talents aside from being an alright healer. Jiraiya deserves better than some loser like you.

You were the person he relied on for certain things. He always came to you when he needed someone to talk to. He said it was just easy to talk to you. The most agonizing instance of that need for comfort is when he just clung onto you when Tsunade married Dan. He asked you if you knew how it felt to see someone you love happy with someone else. Oh the sweet irony. You did... and it hurt. He just looks naturally good with Tsunade. They seem perfect for one another. They've pined for each other for years and it's not fair that it never happened.... But they seem close. There's nothing like a near death experience to give them a push to be together. And what you have in mind will spare you the pain of seeing them together. It would be too hard to live without him anyways.

Tsunade stands. She's had enough of crying over him. It's time to come up with solutions. You scoot and hide behind the wall when she turns around. She leaves the room and her eyes meet yours. You are locked in a staring match with her for several moments. You and her have never gotten along well. To her, you were always the quiet one who never really pushed for anything. The one and only time you got competitive was your career as a medic. It was the only time your nature came to an advantage. Your quiet and calculating way of handling things honed in well in emergency medical situation. It's why you're are where you are, but it doesn't exclude you from her criticism. She's been extra short and curt with you as the lead in charge of this floor. You understand, because the man she loves is dying. Her lips flatten into a tight line. She turns quickly on her heel and walks down the hall.

You slide into the room and shut the door. The situation is bleak. With every passing second, Jiraiya is still inching closer to death. He's just not recovering. His wounds are so severe and so many that's it's hard for his body to handle. He's got several open wounds that are still bleeding, but are sewn shut and wrapped with gauze. Organs are pierced which is adding more problems. His throat is crushed and his arm was forcibly amputated. It's honestly amazing that he's made it this far. But he's too weak for surgery. Any attempts would probably kill him the moment he goes under anesthesia.

The best that has been done was several healers using jutsu to heal some of the internal wounds. Which was mainly focused on his lungs so he can breathe better. One was collapsed and the other was filled with water when he came in. Now they are clear and inflated as they should be. But it's not looking much better. He hasn't woken up. He throws up blood in his coma occasionally, hinting to more internal injuries that may have been missed in the hast.