Together from now until forever [Sequel!! shigadabi] pt2

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Dabi's Pov.

Once he was asleep Kurogiri cleaned up his vomit, off the floor and off of Tomura. We all agree something really fucking fucked up happened for him to have a reaction like that.

He was screaming and crying, his hand's trembled as he reached for his neck. He wanted to die, he wanted to kill himself. He lost it.

Now here he is, asleep in my arm's.

Mumbling and shaking.

I thought he was being stupid and rude when he was holding the rope. But the second we made eye contact I saw the sheer absolute fear and hatred, he wanted a way to escape.

When he opened up about what All for one and ujiko were doing to him as a child.. I never wanted to murder someone more. They forced him into being their guinea pig.

He was only five, but they didn't care.

When Kurogiri started to pet his hair and hold his head in his lap you could see just gow touch starved Tomura was. How terrified he was.
He wanted to forget all over again.

Looking back on everything he's done, the happy pills overhaul gave him might not have been that horrible. If we can just get him help, just enough to where he isn't cutting his arms in his sleep.

I held his head to my chest rubbing his back,  his nails had dug into his own arms.
Why can't I help him? Why?
I've tried so damn hard!

I don't know what he needs. I just want to help make the pain go away.

"I got spinner fixed up, you two need some fixing up to" Toga said sheepishly, her eye's were watery and red from crying.
She held the med kit close. "Do him first, he needs it" I rested my head ontop of his. One hand lost in his white hair, the other on his back.

Toga nodded and sat next to us, carefully taking Tomura's arms out of my lap "Is he going to be okay?" She asked taking care of his arms "I'm going to make damn sure he's okay".

Kurogiri sighed quietly "how are we supposed to get him help? After the bomb people are still hunting for us" he said drying the floor, Toga moving onto my bitten hands.

At least our rings are okay.

And at least he's sleeping.

She wrapped my fingers and palms, cleaned my hands and made sure I wasn't bleeding anymore. She got up and left to probably cry her eye's out.

I sighed and scooped up Tomura's upper body, keeping him close against me not wanting to let him go. I kissed the top of his head before laying my head ontop of his.

"I can watch him tonight so you can sleep, you need some rest Dabi" I haven't slept since Tomura collapsed. This would make it day three without sleep, I don't need it.
Coffee and energy drinks exist. "No. I can do it myself".

Kurogiri just nodded and took what he brought in out with him, closing our door as he spoke to the others.

It's dark in here, there's no light. "Im sorry, Im so so fucking sorry..." I mumbled hiding my face in his hair. Earthy and somewhat floral, his hair always smells earthy but I like it. His hair is greasy and his body is weak. I don't know what to do anymore.

His arms moved, slinking around my waist as he leaned into me.

"..stay...cold..." he said barely audible and shakey "scared" was what he finished with. His hand's held me tight and tears started to wet my shirt.

I kissed the top of his head again, making myself warmer  "I'm not leaving, ever. I'm staying with you and I will never leave, I'll keep you warm I promise" I want to fucking cry.

He's fucking traumatized all over again, we were given new trauma. We're scared.

What will happen after this? What if we look away and the next second he's hanging from a rope with his neck snapped or slowly suffocating.

What if I go to the bathroom and come back to his neck slit open.

What if he rips out his owm eyes?

What the fuck am I supposed to do..?