Together from now until forever [Sequel!! shigadabi] pt2

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Honestly, I think this one needs a trigger warning.

.Tomura's Pov.

"You're threatening to kill me, You trapped me inside of my own mind! I have to see every little flaw of myself here!" I yelled, he's hopeless.

I thought I made it real fucking clear I didn't want to be his successor, he abused me. Battered and bruised me. I was his guinea pig, I was the subject. "Tomura I only wish to speak with you, I only said that as a threat I swear, I wouldn't do that to you" All for one said standing up as well.

I hate him with evey inch of my fucking body. "Yeah sure, says the one that repeatedly hit my arms until the self harm cuts reopened, says the one who took away all of my privacy, saying the one who made me slit my arm open, says the one who made me claw at my eye's, Im partially blind now! I can never see the same way, I can never heal. You beat me senseless, you threatened me, starved me, you called me worthless!".

Panting was all I could do after yelling, He deserves absolutely fucking nothing from me. He deserves hell! He deserves to have his body mutilated.

Every scar I have will be inflicted onto him, if I fucking die trying.

He made me this- this monster.
He took away me, I don't act the same, I can't stick to one personality.
I can't live..

Everyone out there wants my head on a stick, my heart ripped apart into bloody gore. My organs displayed like streamers.
They all want me dead.

I could have had redemption, I could have fixed this horrible society long ago... instead here I am, scarred, empty, I'll never be the same.

He took my identity.

I lost Tenko Shimura, I'll never get him back.
I'll never get me back..

"You ruined me, everything has to be, you made me a disgusting monster. I CAN'T LOVE ANYONE".

My throat is strained.

My voice is loud, weak with hatred. That's all I am, hatred. I can't love my husband the way I wish to, I get scared he'll leave me if I don't bend to his will. He just wants to protect me... Toga wants to be my sister, I don't do her hair anymore, I can't play or hug spinner anymore, I can't love..

Because what if I kill them.

"If they all die.. I'll have nothing... you took everything from me" I said meekly, voice trembling. I feel so cold now.
My poor dad...

Kurogiri just wanted to love me, treat me like a normal kid.. he wished to raise me with love.

Instead I'm pumped full of disgust.
My body feels alien to me, it feels disgusting knowing my body has been used. As a kid I never spoke up, I never said anything..
They touched me, grabbing at my body, sticking needles into me.

They saw me vulnerable.

And they used me.

I wish they never found me, I wish I died. A child's corpse under a bridge. Damage to the skull and eyeballs eaten by flies and rats.
Maybe then I would've been at peace.
Why couldn't I have died..

Why won't the world let me die!

Rip my skin off, cut my tongue out, dismember me...

They've seen my body, they have seen everything. The took advantage of a fucking five year old.

"Just give me a reason, then we will talk" I said gaining my voice back, it hurts to speak. To breathe. "Why did you do all of that to me..? Why would you do that to anyone?" I cried.

That's all I can do, no matter how much a scratch I get no where.

Absolutely nowhere.

All for one is young here, less deathly. "Because I saw the potential that you held, you're powerful and I want to open that power" He said, gesturing to the horizon of my mind.

Decay... destruction.. blood and bones.

Razors scattered, and the papers.
Besides the buildings are small piles of paper, instead of being scattered They're stacked..
"You touched me. You abused and neglected me. YOU TOOK AWAY WHAT LITTLE LEFT OF ME THERE WAS! You ruined me".

I grunted and clenched my fist, "I have no excuse for my actions, not like they would help. Just work with me Tomura".

"How do I leave here?" I asked, I want to wake up.

I want to hang myself. Wishing Is all I can do, I want to kill myself so no one can hurt me. So I don't hurt anyone.

"There's an exit beyond those piles, hills and ruble. Thats where I come in" All for one said quietly, I can see a light beyond it. Far far away.

"I hope you know that I hate you, I want to kill you. With a shotgun, any little one".

"If you kill me, I would be proud of you.. that means you've grown strong" He said going to touch my face. I slapped his ha d away and bit the inside of my cheek. " I like how you decided you cared. After everything you've done to me, I can never forgive you".

"I don't expect you to" he dissolved into nothing, dust crumbling away as the wind in my mind carried him away. The sky is dark gray now.

I sat down and listened, letting the outside voices in.

My family is talking to me, Their voices sound so distorted and mangled.
They sound so distressed.
None of it sounds okay.

"Dabi! Calm down. We'll get him to wake up okay? We need to monitor him and make sure he doesn't die!" Spinner, a voice I can recognize anywhere. Gaming buddy who likes hugs. Sucks at res evil.

They're speaking about my body, "what if he's already dead lizard shit?! My fucking husband might be dead! Dead in my arms as we speak! Just help me wake him up! Toga calm down!" My Dabi...

He believes I'm dead. I wish I was, then I wouldn't have to deal with this.
None of the heartache.

None of the blood..

None of the abuse.

None of the touching.

I feel so fucking disgusting, Im so fucking gross! Im a horrible disappointment. "Please...don't worry, I'll be waking up soon. I'll give you a real goodbye, I promise my love" I whispered touching my cheek lightly. I'll tell him goodbye.

My family deserves one.

I just can't do this anymore.
I can't live.

He opened up all the horid memories, the ones I thought I forgot flooded me. It's sickening knowing what they did to me..
I couldn't tell them no...

"I love you guys... I'll be back soon!".

"Go to bed okay? It's been a long day, keep him close to you. He doesn't look so well" Spinner, you're leaving? I don't blame you honestly.

Thank you for taking care of me, for the hugs, wins and loses. The card games and rage quitting.

Dabi.. I can't even put into words how much you've improved my life..
I'll kiss you, before I go.
I can make sure to give you kiss.

I want to see my memories real quick...
I wamt to remember before I go and hang myself, rid my body of the burden that is my mind and soul.

My thoughts are eating away at me.

I hope they finish.