for them //dreamnotnap

ch 16

written- 01/05/21

TRIGGER WARNINGS- MENTIONS OF BAD EATING HABITS, sexual content

georges pov-

2 months later

who knew you could be so happy with everything in your life while being so undeniably un happy at the same time. that's how i felt. On the one hand, i had an amaizing family who loved and cared for me and friends who kept me company, not to mention my two amaizing boyfriends who i had been with for two months... separately.

On the other hand, something was missing specifically speaking something was missing in my love life. Dont get me wrong im so happy to have dream and sapnap as my boyfriends and i couldn't ask for anyone better simply because there was no body better. they were perfect for me. But i couldn't be with them together it was always just one. It sounds selfish i know some people aren't even lucky enough to find one person who devotes all their time into your happiness let alone two.

But when im with each of them, somethings always missing. With sapnap its the boisterous wheeze of dream that can make you fall into fits of laughter just like that and with dream it was the high pitched squeals from sapnap that made him sound like a whiney 5 year old girl kicking off at the local Tesco. That wasn't the only thing missing, it was in bed aswell. dont get me wrong there both amaizing in bed but also so different to the point they would match perfectly.

Being a masochist myself, the two of them have different ways of inflicting pain on me during sex. dream goes for things that cause a stinging pain like spanking, knife play and scratching whereas sapnap goes for the more aching pain like biting, tightly gripping onto me and choking. both great on their own but together would be so much better.

However, i knew i couldn't have them both together. During my relationship with them, the twos hatred towards eachother grew more, mainly out of jealousy of how much time i spent with each of them. it got so bad to the point we had to make schedules for when and how long I can see each of them. I knew what was happening wasn't right. It wasn't healthy to have such a controlled relationship. so i decided to do the only thing i could.

i picked up my phone and opened our group chat which still only had the messages from the day we discussed the future of our relationship. With shaky hands i typed out a message.

me- meet me at the park on 5th street

sapnap- be there in five

dream - on my way

i put my phone in the pocket of my joggers and chucked on a hoodie. I didnt care how i looked. i quickly left the house walking to the park. i got there first, dream and sapnap arriving shortly after. We sat down on a bench me on one side the two of them on the other. i pulled my knees to my chest, preparing myself for what i was going to say. We sat in silence before i finally gathered the courage to say what i needed to say. I took a deep breath.

"i cant be with you two anymore." i said. it shocked me that I had actually said it even though i had been thinking about it all day. it broke my heart to say as tears pored from my eyes. "w-what do you mean?" sapnap asked. i sniffled, "i-i cant be w-with you separately. I-its selfish b-but how am im-meant to date t-two people w-who hate eachother. w-we have t-times w-where im allowed to see e-each of you. I-I cant do it a-anymore." i explained, water running all down my face.

"w-we can be with you together. p-please dont do this" dream begged, looking into my eyes. "w-what kind of a boyfriend would i be if i made you to be together for my won benefit. Y-you wouldn't be happy. i cant do that to you." i explained, looking forward again. i knew if i looked at them any longer i wouldn't stop crying.

"i love you George please don go." they both said in unison. i froze up before looking up at them. "Its for the best." i said getting up and turning around. "i love you too" i whispered, barely loud enough for them to hear but i knew they heared. I walked home, never turning back. warm tears washed down my face as i walked into my home, ignoring my concerned family who tried to see if i was okay. I ran up to my room, flopping on my bed.

i cried so hard to the point my organs hurt and my eyes stung. I really did love them.