failing at life BTS

Extrovert with People Problems

One thing that extremely irritates me about my desk light: it's on the right side and I'm right handed.

Every single time I'm writing something and it's on, it always creates a shadow. And don't call me stupid and tell me to just move it or something. I don't have space on the other side and it's too much work for a lazy person like me. I'm only complaining, that's it. That's all I ever do, complain but never change, more like never speak up to make a change. Like tonight at dinner, we we're eating out and we were ready to order and my dad kept trying to make me call a waiter over. And I'm just like no. Don't make me raise my hand or finger or whatever and call the waiter over like I'm royalty or something. I'm not calling people who do this rude or anything, I'm just saying I don't feel comfortable doing that kind of thing because to me, it feels like I'm saying "I'm better than you." or "I'm really rude, now give me my food." I understand that you're supposed to do this to get the waiter's attention, but I just find it really awkward waving my arms in the air like an idiot trying to get someone to walk over to my table. And then my dad asked possibly the stupidest question, making me feel extremely frustrated because I hate his tone of voice when he speaks to me and I just don't like my dad in general, he irritates me so fucking much, anyway, he said, "What are you going to do when your mom and I aren't here anymore?" In my head I'm just like, "I'll eat in or if I ever eat out, go with friends or something." On the outside, I just completely ignored him and rolled my eyes because, as I said, I found it annoying.

Another thing, a few nights ago, my sister went to this after class club thing and me and my mom went to pick her up. My mom wanted me to go inside and pick her up. I was like okay, but then I got to the door, which was see through btw, and saw that she wasn't downstairs yet. I was definitely not going to wait in a room of super judgemental people for my sister. I just don't like it and I get like really mad and frustrated when I get put in those kind of situations, I don't know why I just do. And so I went back to the car, where my mom was waiting for me, and told her my sister wasn't down yet. She then told me to just go inside and ask. I was NOT going to ask a stranger, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, I just can't do this sort of thing. Is it weird that I'm an extrovert with people problems? Lucky for me, by the time that I got back to the door, my sister was already there.

So......please tell me at least some of you feel this way?

No?

I probably just have mental problems then. :(

Okay...bye.

-nicholeisabelle

Ps. how cute is that picture tho?