Omega for Hire | Jikook ✓

Chapter 3: Good Little Alpha

Jimin

I sigh as I walk around the Park company building. One day, this will all be mine. And when it is, I hope to be a good boss.

My eyes wander around the tech building, taking everything like I'm in a foreign place despite practically growing up here. When my parents were still alive, this place was my nursery. Hell, I was probably breastfed in the office more than at 'home.'

As of now, the company is overseen by my grandmother. She's pretty old fashioned, but she's good at her job. However, she still has this idea that an alpha head would be better despite this company being her brainchild in the first place. Why she credits this all to my late grandfather, I'll never know. I've always suspected it's alpha-centered misogyny, a practice I hope to not continue to practice despite the ideals being in my favor in a lot of ways.

Sometimes, I wish I were an omega. The stereotypes around the toxic alphahood aren't things I subscribe to. Yes, I'm a bit of a control freak and I accept that. That's exactly why I have a preference toward alphas. Even though I'd never use my fertility-class against someone to try and establish dominance, any preconceived notions about alphas an omega may have because of their grandparents, or even parents, may have passed down can set the stage for a power imbalance that I'm not for. I like to be in control, but not because I'm an alpha.

I want to be in control of situations because I've earned it through knowledge and hard work.

When I was in high school, I tried dating omegas. And although I got along well with them, I started to realize that things were off. Communication was hard and borderline unattainable. Even though under law, we're all 'equal,' it doesn't feel that way in practice.

And I want a partner, not someone expected to be subservient.

All my life, I've been around alpha-talk. Alpha-talk is a weird practice that always puts alphas at the forefront, but can be so subtle that it's just seen as fact and no one questions it. It's what gets me weird looks when I say I want to switch during sex. That's not very 'alpha-like' of me.

Furthermore, I've always gotten stupid comments in regards to sex with omegas. I'm pansexual, but I've noticed when people talk about omegas that are assigned men at birth, I'm expected to fuck them similarly to some sort of pocket pussy. Why fuck their ass when 'they have a hole specifically for that purpose?' 'Why pay attention to their dick?'

It's weird. It makes it so that omegas are just supposed to take it. Just because I could receive a yes and only get with people who say yes doesn't mean I'm getting true consent. There are more nuances to it that people think about in relationships that aren't typically conceived as 'normal.'

A big part of me thinks Jungkook is a slave to the system. Although I like the fact that he's free to argue and be a little shit with me, I've noticed that he has a harder time saying no to other alphas. I don't know if it's because it's usually a one time deal during his heats, but I've never seen what he's done as sex. He's always been fucked. The equal dynamics have never been there.

Seeing him limp around, disoriented, and an overall mess after some of these 'exchanges' never fails to piss me off. Since he's gay, he deals with toxic masculinity and alpha-hood together. So he has never really been in a relationship.

It's probably why he's so insatiable. Rather than being a sex addict, I suspect that his needs are simply ignored and not being met. It's like he hops from alpha to alpha, looking for someone who just happens to like what he does so he doesn't have to explicitly ask. It's like communicating through sex is so frowned upon that he thinks he'll lose his reputation as a 'sexy omega' by advocating for himself more.