Charlie Gillespie~Teen mom~

Jackson

The sun streamed into my face that morning. My alarm was set for 12. I wasn't planning on waking up a second before that. Yet I somehow managed to be perfectly conscious at 7 and listening to the aggressive sound of someone banging on my door.

Charlie.

"Hi." He sighed as I searched his eyes looking for a fragment of anger in his expression.

There's wasn't one.

His blue eyes were just as kind and innocent as always.

"Hi Charlie."

"I wanna talk about.. things. Maybe we could go grab breakfast? Is Casey here?"

"No. She's with Vinnie."

"Sooo breakfast?"
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We sat in a booth of a diner not too far from my apartment.

It reminded me of the Oflarity's back at home. I miss Monday morning breakfasts with Celeste and Izzy.

Before things got so complicated and dramatic.

I can think back to the moments before I found out.

The party before senior year where we thought Casey was conceived. We were so happy then. Just me, Charlie and our friends. Nothing more.

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade Casey for the world but I just wonder where I would be if this past year never happened.

Would I be happier? Less stressed. I know I'd have fewer bruises and doctor's bills. I wouldn't have to use a ginormous chunk of my paycheck on diapers. God they were so expensive. And for what?

I'm just so tired. All of the time.

"Yale. Are you gonna order or are you just gonna keep staring at the fork?"

"Yeah sorry. Just oatmeal. Thanks."

"Oatmeal? You're pregnant. There's no way you just want oatmeal."

"Charlie. That's all I want."

"Okay but you're eating for two. That can't be about. What about to baby?"

"Enough about the baby. Oatmeal please. thank you."

The waitress grabbed our menus and Charlie turned his attention back to me.

"I know you don't want the baby but you could at least feed it."

"You think I don't know when I'm hungry and when I'm not."

"I just want to keep you both healthy."

"And I appreciate that but all I want is a bowl of fucking oatmeal why are you being so serious about this? It's breakfast. We'll have another meal time just like it in around 5 hours. It's not that big of a deal."

"It is that big of a deal because I want him... our baby... to come out strong and healthy."

"Charlie."

"Don't do that to me. I'm not a child."

"Stop acting like one."

"I know you don't want to keep Jackson?"

"Jackson? You named it?"

"Just a suggestion. I wanted to run a couple of names by you."

"You're not listening to me. I don't want to keep it."

"But I do."

"Are you going to raise it by yourself?"

"If I have to."

"Charlie. I am telling you right now, that if we don't give this baby up for adoption and you decide to raise it on your own.. that's how you'll do it. On your own."

"Yale."

"No. I have worked too hard to get to where I am and I can't just throw that away. I'll give birth to him.... it and you can take it. Done deal."

"No. Meg it's not like a library drop off, it's a child. A child that needs 2 parents."

"I agree. Which is why we should find it 2 parents. There are so many couples out there that are looking for children. The system is terrible, broken and abusive. I promise you that I will not give this baby to anyone who won't care for it as well as we could. A loving environment where it can grow. Wouldn't that be nice? We can't provide that Charlie. Not right now."

"Why not? Do you know how many people we have that could help raise him? Like we do with Casey?"

"It's not about that. I love Casey and though she has so many people that love her, her childhood won't exactly be what we'd call stable. Sleeping at different apartments every night. Sitting in a library early in the morning while I check out books to students. Sometimes I can't even feed her on time because I'm so exhausted. We're struggling with the one baby, imagine how we'd be with two."

"So you keep his but not mine?"

"What?"

"Vinnie."

"What does this have to do with Vinnie?"

"You were my girlfriend. When he... did what he did you walked around like it never happened. As if you're event phased. Meanwhile you were carrying his child pretending it was mine."

"I didn't know."

"Did you ever wonder how I felt when that beautiful baby came out? I expected her to be mine and she wasn't. You never asked me how I felt?"

"I'm so sorry I didn't ask you for your opinion about my baby. I probably would have if you hadn't disappeared after she was born."

"I needed space."

"I needed YOU! And you weren't there so how do you think I felt? Waking up to morning, going over your house expecting an amazing day with you to hear from your housekeeper that you left early that morning. How do you think I felt when I went up to your room and all of your clothes were gone. You were gone. You left me and Casey."

"You seemed to be doing fine without me getting beat up by what's his face."

I watched regret flood through his face as he realized what he just said.

"Hold on."

"I can't believe you just said that."

"I didn't mean it. I swear. I was just upset. Please can we finish talking."

"No. I um.. I think I'm gonna get a lyft. I'll see you."

"Yale wait."
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hi everyone. Don't expect too many chapters on this because I think my Charlie phase is over but I'll finish the story I promise. except I'm gonna cut it down like a lot so lots of love.