finally free

chapter 16

"is this your first party?" i asked, turning to luke

he looked over placing his hand on my thigh drawing circles with his fingers, he turned back to the road and gripped his steering wheel steadily.

"sure is, i'm so pumped! i even brought the guitar to show off some songs i've been writing"

"well i'm sure you'll be centre of attention tonight. we're here now so make sure you don't sound like shit" i said as i lept out of the car

"wow you're real nice today aren't you?" luke bantered, meeting me after getting out from his side.

"always gotta make sure you don't embarrass yourself" 

luke smiled but didn't answer, his arms reached for my hips and dragged me in, keeping a tight grip.

"don't forget you owe me" i moved my arms to wrap around his neck, praying to god that my cheeks didn't look as red as they felt.

"owe you for what? i really think it'd be the other way around"

"you owe me a kiss" my cheeks felt like they were on fire, i twirled pieces of lukes hair to try and distract myself from the butterflies swimming in my stomach

"that can be fixed" i mumbled moving my hands to cup lukes face before pulling him in for a kiss, it's like he melted from the action tugging at my hips attempting to pull me closer. i pulled away watching luke as he got his breath back.

"the things you do to me y/n" he laughed releasing his grip before going to fetch his guitar, i waited licking my lips at what he had just said to me.

the party

it was a beach party, of course, people swimming, surfing, kissing, drinking and anything you'd expect but the main attraction was the fire place filled with people crowding around for of course luke patterson.  

parties were definitely not my thing, i hated standing their talking to people you wouldn't even acknowledge at school, its just a way for everyone to get drunk and hook up with each other. i wandered around before i found myself walking over to the fire, almost instantly i could hear the soft strums of guitar and lukes angelic voice, as i approached closer i saw how packed it was, i had to squeeze through and stand on my tippie toes just to get a good view, of brianna snuggling into luke as he sung..

they weren't kissing, i can't be jealous, i shouldn't be jealous, right? i turned to walk away when the guitar stopped  

"y/n! come sit!" luke yelled making everyone face me and making brianna send me the filthiest look.

"oh, um i'm gonna go get a drink." i lied before taking off, i think luke went to follow me but the crowd slowly faded away.

after actually have a drink or two and talking to friends i decided to go find luke, i hadn't seen him all night and at least wanted to know how much fun he was having. i scuffed my feet along the sand, taking in how soft it was, i looked around trying to spot luke, i had searched everywhere so where was he? my thoughts halted as i watched brianna sit on top of luke as they kissed, i could barley see anything but i could tell that there was so much more love and passion in that then in any of the kisses between luke and i. fuck, i knew it was weird luke patterson being with me y/n y/l/n, we didn't mix, he was too popular and i just wasn't enough for him.

brianna slowly pulled off lukes shirt, kissing him with such agression, he held her at her hips tracing circles of her swimsuit. are you joking? god damn i was dumb enough to think he only did that to me.

"for fucks sake!" i shouted not being able to watch any longer.

both of them jumped up, as startled as the other, but as they realised who i was, both their looks changed. brianna had the biggest smirk on her face where as luke looked like he had seen a ghost, ironic.

"y/n! i- um" luke shouted but brianna cut in

"y/n can't you see we were in the middle of something?" brianna asked

"oh yeah, no worries, have fun!" i stormed off before anyone could say anything, tears swelling in my eyes as my throat choked up.