I was put on meds to help me out with the "zoning out". They actually help and I've been doing it less often but it's struggle to take them. Larry has to watch me every time to make sure I take the right amount and nothing more. It gets annoying sometimes though.
I'be finally gone to school for a whole month with out any problems. Lisa threw a small congratulations party Ash, Travis, Todd, and Maple all came. Larry was there of course. It was nice we all had a sleepover. I say without any problems except for the two jerks. They bother me everyday. I didn't even do anything to them they just hate me. I don't tell Larry about it I don't need any drama and surprisingly Jasper and Mandy are great at timing when to pick on me. No ones ever around and they don't do it for to long that my friends would start to worry. I know what you're thinking "Why don't you tell Larry what they do? It could send you into a relapse or something worse." And I get that it's just I don't want him in trouble for fighting them or getting hurt. Plus I kinda made a deal with them. They get to bother me whenever and I don't tell as long as they stop bothering other kids. And it's worked.
But that's not important they don't really bother me that much in a emotion sense. I just make sure to hide the bruises from everyone and so far no one has suspected anything. And I'm gonna keep it that way.
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"Salllllllllyyyyyyy fffffaaaaaaccccceeeeeeeee!!!!!!!" Larry drags my name out as I sit in the shower.
"Go away Larry I'm taking a shower. I'll be done in a second." I respond rubbing conditioner in my hair.
"I GOTTA PEE HURRY UPPPP!" I hear thuds behind the door as Larry terribly tries to break the door down.
Jesus this man is anything but patient sometimes. I finish washing my hair and turn off the water. Grabbing my towel to dry off I study myself in the foggy mirror.
Great even through the fog I can still see the bruises. God when will these go away?
I quickly get dressed and leave the bathroom so Larry can do his thing. As I'm walking to the bedroom my head starts to feel dizzy. I realize what's about to happy and quickly call for Larry. I try to walk to the couch but before I can I once again feel myself falling into a endless pit of nothing. Here we go again.
Everything's dark and it's cold. I feel myself shiver in the dark room as I look around trying to find a light or maybe an exit.
Disappointment
Weak
Nothing
"Shut up!! I'm not any of those things!!" I yell into the darkness. My words echoing throughout the room. I begin walking in no certain direction when I feel the ground start to shake soon enough I begin falling once more but this time I land in something even more cold than the room. I open my eyes and once again I'm back in the lake. Struggling to breathe I try to swim up but find I can't. My head hurts. I look around and only see the pitch black of water surrounding me.
Failure
Try again
They hate you
Die
I begin to scream my mouth filling with water as I hear the voices scream into my ears. My throat burns. I once again try to swim up as my head feels like it's going to explode but when I look up I see Larry. He reaches his hand into the water and grabs my wrist pulling me up.
Coughing up water and taking deep breaths I look around and see I'm now in the hospital.
"How... how did I get here?" I ask Larry.
"You're an idiot you know that? What the fuck were you thinking?", the sudden outburst causes me to flinch, "Why are you so fucking selfish trying to kill yourself over nothing. Are you serious!!!" He yells at me his tone harsh his words bleeding into my ears.
"I'- I'm sorry. I just I felt alone and I didn't want to be here anymore. I'm just so tired of everythi-", He cuts me off, "The next time you do something like this I will watch and if you fail I will not help you. You said you didn't want to be saved so I won't save you. Fucking pathetic. For someone who wants to die so bad you sure did a terrible job at dying."
Tears are streaming down my face. How could he say something like that? I thought he would understand. I shouldn't have been saved he's right. I should of tried harder then he wouldn't have to deal with me. I'll try harder I'll do it better next time.
I swear
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"Ok just make sure he doesn't hurt himself again."
"Mom I'm worried. He hasn't had one this bad in so long. I'm scared I did something to cause it. Do you think it was cause of me?"
"No Larry it's not your fault I promise. It's not something that can be controlled. I bet Sally would be proud of you for how you reacted to it. You immediately started helping him even though you have no idea what he's seeing. I don't think someone as caring as you would be the cause of something like this."
"I just wish I could stop them forever. It's scares him and it's scares me cause what if one of these times he doesn't come back from it...I don't know what I would do without him..."
"I know it's scary but we gotta stay strong for him. He's gone through so much and I can tell by friends and family being there for him it helps. So stop worrying alright? I'm sure he'll wake up soon. Until then get some rest ok? I love you lar."
"Love you mom."
I hear the door shut meaning Lisa has walked out of the room leaving just me and Larry. I want to open my eyes but it feels like such a hard thing to do. Slowly but surely I begin to move my arm to find Larry. I feel him jump a bit as I my hand lays on his back.
"Sal? Hey blue are you back with us?" He's voice frantic and filled with concern. Everything hurts. The words of what he said echo through my brain. But I know it wasn't really him saying that. Still it hurts. I begin to trace random things on his back to show him I'm OK. I feel his once stiff body begin to relax a bit the more I draw random doodles with my finger.
"Do you want to sit up?" He asks after a few minutes of silence. I give a thumbs up and he begins to help me sit up. My body aches from the movement and my throat burns as if I really was underwater trying to escape. Every joint in my body feels still like it hasn't moved in years. We sit in silence some more until we hear a knock on the door.
"Come in." Larry says to the knocking stranger. The door opens and Lisa is there with Travis by her. He waved slightly before walking in the room.
"Oh hey Travis I didn't know you were coming by..." Larry says looking back and forth between Travis and his mother.
"Yeah Lisa called me down and asked me to come 'comfort my poor babies.'" He quotes.
"Of course she did. Heh. Did she tell you everything or just to come down here?" Larry questions.
"She told me everything. Not that Sal was awake though" He turns to me and smiles some, "Glad you're back dude."
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Human (Sally Face)
FanfictionWelcome to book 2. I advise you read Bones first before reading this book What if Sally didn't die? Sal fisher has never had an easy life. His mother was taken from him at a young age. Along with her being gone the thing that killed her destroyed S...
