A swipe of love

part 15

(so as you know, you got ready, and went outside)
you: you guys look so good! like all of you!
cyp: don't let her sound like this, something is wrong
you: i'm just being nice bitch
jake: HAHA thank u tho
jacob: look who says that
you: ay thank u bro
jackson: alone, she is 99% pretty but
you: what about that 1% ?
jackson: with me, she is totally full, 100% !
cyp: YOO THAT WAS SMOOTH
you: skwnakja ur weird again
jacob: cute jackson cute
jake: girl u made him like this?
you: i guess sooo
jackson: nahh i'm still the same
jake: u are but more emotional and romantic i think
jacob: yes thats true
you: i guess a rock has feelings too, just knows how to hide it sometimes
cyp: he doesn't have them at all, only for you (rolls eyes playfully)
you: cyp bro as he should
jackson: yea yea anywaysss let's order something to drink
you: okay i'll have only coca cola
(they order and it arrives)
you: um jackson, cyp since when?
jackson: what
you: u drinking alchocol
jackson: nah i don't just because of my birthday
cyp: we celebrating bro's b-day how can i not drink
you: yo okay okay but be carefull
cyp: no seriously, what's wrong with you
jackson: don't treat her like that
cyp: she's my sister lmao
jackson: i know bro, but u can't talk with her like that, it makes her feel bad
cyp: HAHAHAHA it doesn't trust me
you: it usually doesn't... now, peoples watching us cyp..
cyp: who cares
jacob: we all
cyp: yooo

(they then continue talking, but jackson notices that ur quiet.. he puts his hand on your already shaky leg and tries to calm u down)
jackson: are you okay?
you: hm? yeah i'm fine
(he notices these pretty girls staring)
jackson: (pulls you by ur waist in a kiss) shh
you: how many times are u gonna do this.. u don't know how this makes me feel
jackson: u like it right?
you: i sure do
jackson: mhm (smiles)
jacob: yo guys
cyp: we are still here
jake: chillee homies let them have their time
you: yeah u heard him
cyp: i'll call ur mom sista
you: cyprien i'm 17
cyp: never mind
you: hah don't act like that we all know you're such a softie actually
cyp: that's not true
you: howeverrr

(they all laugh and continue talking... after 3 hours spent there, with a music, party etc. yk u niticed jackson's drunk. even cyp with him. he was dancing then came there sitting next to you again, as all of the guys did. alchocol started doing it then...)
jackson: baby
you: ew
jacob: (look at you in a sus way, knowing he's drunk)
you: jacob... help
jacob: he'll be okay hopefully
you: but will i?
jackson: let me kiss you
you: jackson- stop (u stand up as he does rught after u)
jackson: (hugs u hard and pulls u in a kiss)
you: jackson.. u smell too much like alchocol..
jackson: let me (puts his hand on ur butt)
you: please jackson... people.. they are watching us
jackson: what ? let me f* you slow
you: please jackson stop it it makes me unconfortable...
jacob: bro could you—
jackson: give me a kiss
you: (tear up) you are drunk please stop
jacob: mina please don't cry
jake: bro, jackson are u okay
jackson: i want her
you: u already have me wdym
jackson: i want her to f* me here
you: bitch! stop it! (u start yelling out of anger) i am.. we are done! (u ran home)
jacob: mina wait, wait!
you: no jacob, stay here and take care i mean, be careful with them!
(then u ran home... when u arrived there, it was like 22h and u sat on jacksons bed, cuddled his hoodie, put ur hands around ur knees and starzed crying even more. after awhile, u fell asleep.)

(the next day, y'all woke up, but u ignored jackson the whole morning)
you: here, eat this
jacob, cyp, jackson: thank you
you: yeah yeah
jackson: could you give me a ketchup?
you: (just ignore him)
jackson: bro what's haplening with you?
you: nothing, keep eating
cyp: chill, mina u should eat too
jackson: i don't understand you
you: (start crying, look at him then look down) of course you don't... ofc...
jacob: please eat something
you: (stand up and go to his room) i'm not hungry (left the room)

cyp: uh
jackson: what's wrong with her? is she on her period or whatever
jacob: bro last night
jackson: yea i know.. i got drunk but i didn't do anything to her
jacob: um... u actually did
jackson: bro i got drunk, not her
jacob: huh listen (explains to him everything, what he told, said, did)
jackson: (says with his head down, in his arms which are on the table) w-what
jacob: yes, u heard me
jackson: (his eyes full of tears) why wha- why did i do that...
cyp: what ab me?
jacob: u got drunk too, but haven't done anything special
cyp: oh and, she's traumatized from alchocol... our dad was alchocolic before... she saw so many things.. she was young, and now she's very scared from you bro, i'm sure
jackson: w.. when did it start
jacob: i don't even understand you anymore, anyways i know people were staring at you and it was very awkward, i felt so bad for her...
jackson: how... how.. why did i do that... i don't usually drink.. that's not for me... she's done with me...
jacob: nah i think she said that out of anger, go to her now please.. she needs a hug, she needs you at all
cyp: gross
jacob: shut up, u made her feel unconfortable too
jackson: she won't listen
jacob: just go and try
jackson: i'm going but... how can i go to her eyes... she deserves so much better.. i regret d... everything
jacob: talk less, go to her
(stands up and goes to you...)

*knock knock*
(silent)
jackson: um.. hey...
(still nothing)
jackson: i know.. i'm probably the last person you wanna hear from right now... but
you: come in
jackson: h- oh, really? (comes in)
jackson: listen... i'm—
you: don't even say you're sorry
jackson: (sits next to you) mina.. i... i don't usually drink i just... (puts his hand on urs, but you move yours back to urself)
jackson: (looks at you with tears in his eyey) listen... please... i... i just don't deserve you.. i'm a heartless alchocolic bitch who doesn't—
you: (say in totally calm voice) don't talk about yourself like that. i don't want to make anyone feel like this
jackson: u didn't made me feel like this, i just realized... alone.. thats a different between us... u don't make anyone feel bad... but i do... and i—
(you start crying)
jackson: i am so sorry... for everything... i made u feel like that again... i know your past... please.. just don't think i'm a bad person, i'll never drink again...
(you are just crying, not saying anything)
jackson: please don't cry... (hugs you, but u still don't say anything) now... i'll understand if you... want to break up  with me.. u deserve much better than me (says that while being right next to the door, about to leave the room) i'll leave you alone now... and again... i'm—
you: don't leave me
jackson: u want me to stay?
(u don't say anything)
jackson: (comes to u, hugs and kisses ur neck) could you give me another chance? i.. i just.. i'll be lost without you
you: i never said i broke up with you
jackson: wait... yesterday u said—
you: it wasn't meant for it... u made me very mad.. u just... remided me of my dad before.. thank god his normal now (start crying)
jackson: babe... (hugs u) i'm not.. i don't wanna remind u of bad things in ur life.. i am so sorry for that... i've just..
you: been drunk, yeah i know
jackson: could you..
you: (hug him) u have luck... i love you so much... so fucking much. i can't leave you. i won't be able to live
jackson: (pulls u closer) i'll never do it again.. i promise
you: okay.. and i'm sorry too..
jackson: no, don't be sorry... it makes me awkward... it's all my fault...
you: no it's not i—
jackson: end of the story, i won't listen to you
you: ah fine
jackson: come on now... go and eat something...
you: i'm not hungry
jackson: oh really (leaves the room)

{i'm so sorry if this has grammar or writting mistakes, it's like 2 am rn and yeah i always write at night so you know hahah anyways i hope u like this story and enjoy reading! if i have time, i'll write more now! ty for reading btw:) }