I'm Just Fine

4

The next day, Hongjoong stayed at home while the others went to school. He didn't feel safe going to school, not after he attacked someone.

"Joong, you can't stay in your room forever", Yeosang said, poking his head into the bedroom.

"I'm not risking attacking anyone. Not again". Yeosang sighed.

"You won't attack anyone again".

"How can you be sure"? Hongjoong asked, looking at him. Yeosang shrugged.

"It was one time. I don't think it's gonna repeat". Hongjoong sighed.

"C-can I just be left alone? Please"? Yeosang nodded and left the room, leaving Hongjoong alone. He was thirsty but he didn't want to hunt. His throat was slowly burning but he tried his best to ignore it.

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That night, Seonghwa got home and noticed Hongjoong was missing.

"Hey Sang, did you see Hongjoong leave"? Yeosang shook his head.

"I didn't see him leave. Is he not here"? Seonghwa shook his head.

"I don't know where he went. Sorry". Seonghwa sighed and headed out into the forest, following Hongjoong's scent and was lead into the city.

"What are you doing here Joong"? He muttered to himself. He found he was lead into an alley and jumped up onto the roofs and looked down but saw no one. 

"Where are you Joong"?

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Hongjoong slipped into the darkness of the streets, looking around. He knew what he was doing was wrong but he couldn't stop himself. His eyes landed on a gun in someone's pocket so he followed the male. When he got closer to him, Hongjoong grabbed him and pushed him into an alley.

"Hey"! The male shouted, looking at Hongjoong.

"Who the fuck are you"? He asked, but Hongjoong didn't answer.

"I asked you a question". The male grabbed the gun and aimed it. Hongjoong looked up at him and smirked.

"Try to shoot me. I dare ya", Hongjoong said. The male pulled the trigger just as Hongjoong disappeared from in front of him.

"What the"- He went to turn around before the gun was ripped from his hand.

"What the fuck"! The male was grabbed from behind, a hand covering his mouth before feeling something bite down hard on his neck. He tried to scream but failed and he couldn't move. Hongjoong soon pulled away and let him drop to the ground. He heard something behind him and turned to see Seonghwa staring at him.

"H-Hwa"...

"I thought you weren't gonna kill anyone again", Seonghwa said, walking closer to him. Hongjoong backed away slightly. 

"I-I'm sorry. I just- I can't stop myself. I don't know why". He covered his face just as Seonghwa rushed forward and hugged him. 

"I know what it's like to want human blood. I know how hard it is to stop yourself from attacking them", he whispered. Hongjoong looked up at him.

"Really"? Seonghwa nodded.

"About a year after I was turned, I went off on my own. I had no idea what I was doing. I had found somewhere to stay for a bit and I starved myself. But when I couldn't take it much longer, I... I forgot who I was and attacked the closest human I saw. And for weeks, I'd go out and just feed on human blood. When Yeosang found me again, he was horrified in what I had done and promised to help me. And he did".

"Hwa... how long ago was I turned"? Hongjoong asked, pulling away.

"A few years ago. But"-

"But nothing. I wouldn't be attacking humans a few years after I got turned".

"Joong"...

"Hwa. You don't know what I've gone through. I've been told I'm special and others are after me. I have two abilities unlike other vampires, my eyes are gold and red. My life is insane and I'm now attacking human".

"It'll be"-

"Don't tell me it'll be ok"! Hongjoong shouted. Seonghwa snapped his mouth shut as Hongjoong shouted. That wasn't his Hongjoong. He never shouted and he was never worried.

"I'm over people saying it'll be ok. It's not! For a year, I've held myself back".

"Y-you've wanted to attack a human for a year"? Hongjoong nodded.

"A year. I-I can't hold myself back anymore. So much has happened and I... I gave up holding myself back". Seonghwa went to walk forward but Hongjoong stopped him.

"Don't. I just... I just need to be alone". Hongjoong disappeared from view and made his way back to the house, slamming the bedroom door shut as he entered the room.