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— "It feels comfortable without a talk
It becomes my home because
You're there."
( BTS - Home )
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~ Another day of ma life. Meeh ~

I actually have no idea how long this chapter is going to be as I will just babble without stopping. It's gonna be all over the place but whatever.

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Me and Dad met up today at around 10AM. It was supposed to be 9AM but for some reasons he just didn't came. Whatever. When he arrived we put all the trashbags into the car and drove them off to this trash place thing. I don't really know what it's called to be fair cuz it's a weird ass place. After we finished that we went for grocery shopping. And here's where the dilemma once again started.

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My dad got so extremly worried because I basically only bought like 2-3 things to eat. I don't really eat much lately. Sometimes I skip a whole day of eating and drinking. Yup depressions are wonderful. Anyways, we had a little discussion because of that again. But as I told him, I can only eat when I am hungry and drink when I am thirsty. He told me that I have to force myself but I seriously can't. If I do force myself to eat or drink, I'll end up having either extrem belly aches or throw up.

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After that he drove me back home and we said our goodbyes. I put all my stuff away and texted all my friends back and checked my notifications. Then the scariest thing ever happened. The entire town suddenly went in a blackout. Not only the town I live in but also several other ones around it. I didn't even had service to make a phone call. I was literally lost.

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I took the chance and went to my paremts house because the thing is, because of my depressions I need to have always music on. If there's no music, I start to hurt myself. Sooo, because there was no internet and elecricity, I had no music. Which made me go to my parents house so I can at least have someone to talk to.

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It was around 2 hours and a few minutes before they fixed the issue that caused the blackout. That was really weird. Never again.

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Once I was back home I quickly turned on my music and had my safe space back. I'll get super sad if I can't listen to music for at least 10 min.

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Also because of my depressions, my insomnia is also reaching peak level. I haven't slept for almost 2 days already. Like I am actually exhausted but my brain and body doesn't let me rest. Which is annoying as hell. I have to be in the nee programm tomorrow again for 2 hours and straight after that I have my 1 hour mental therapy. I'm gonna die lmaos.

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Right now I don't really know what I should do. I'm kinda bored, that's why I decided to write this chapter. Even tho it's nothing really special. Maybe I'll try to write another chapter for one of my stories. Maybe I'm able to make something good even tho I'm hella depressed. Or I'll make some more upcoming chapters for my Kpop group. ( I'm still salty about the fact that they aren't real man ).

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Well, I'll peace out now. Maybe I'll upload some games or Q&As. Or some other stuff. I dunno. You'll see when you get the notifications. ;D

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( wanted to make this chapter a little less depressed af )