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~ The whatever this is, is back ~
Guess who was struggling again to upload a gif because of fricking copyrights...Right, me! Dhuu. Just lemme put them cute gifs, my god. It's not like we're going to look anything away. Fsfsfs, that's funny. AND YES I'M A SIMP FOR SEO CHANGBIN. LEAVE ME ALONE. T^T

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Anyways, hii. Your favorite time is here. The time were I will talk about whatever I wanna talk. Sit back, have a snack and enjoy.

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Uhm yeah, what should I talk about? I don't really know haha. On friday I was shopping with my dad. It was really fun. He helped me pick some cool clothes and nice necklaces. I'm glad we have similar fashion taste. But he scolded me cuz I bought everything in black xD So he went and got me some shorts in the color baby lavender. I must admit, I really like the pants. Hahah. Even if they aren't black xD

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After that we went grocery shopping like every friday. He was surprised because I barely bought any food. He's still concerned about my eating habits. And honestly it gets worse and worse. I think I dropped from around 70kg down to 55-60kg. Without even going on diet or like doing sports or so. I don't know, I just don't feel like eating anymore. I look at food and I'm disgusted by it. Dunno what's that about.

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Today however, I was in mental clinic. Like every tuesday. MAN I'M ANGRY. I wasn't allowed to listen to music. Which is my comfort when I am in places that I don't feel comfy. And then I just had to put my headphones down. Rude. I will tell this my therapist, he better scold that lady. Or I won't go there anymore. Because I didn't had my comfort, I started to get extremly shaky and dizzy. Which is an alert my body gives me when I'm about to have a panic attack. I somehow managed to sit the 2 hours out there without crying. Or losing my mind.

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On my way home I suddenly had a panic attack at the trainstation. I was so close to throw up and cry. Also I didn't had a paperbag with me to breathe into so I don't know what else I'm supposed to do when I have a panic attack. I would have just sat down on the floor and cried like a baby and called my dad to come and pick me up. I honestly hate my panic attacks. I never had them this bad. It got worse after my last relationship ended. He was toxic anyways. So whatever to him. XD

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I wanted to visit my best friend but because of Covid situation in Swiss I don't know if I'm able to travel to germany or not cuz I don't wanna be stuck there when I go and they close the borders xD so yeah, we'll probably meet between october-december. Which is lowkey sad. But oh well. Can't change it.

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Also since Friday we have a horrible heat wave in switzerland. The firedepartment is extremly busy and so is the hospital cuz people are collapsing left & right.

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~ Here's an OOTD & pic of my ugly face ~
Yes I'm still chubby and shouldn't wear clothes that don't cover my belly but honestly, I gave 0 sh!t's that day. ;D

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