Inferno love| Mystical Love series#2

Chapter 20

Arden point of view

I can see it in my mum eyes every time she looks sadly at her glass of red wine just like her red rims eyes are too full of tears about her loss as well as her heart breaking when she tries to take her mind off of my dad by drinking her despair again, although it hurts as much as it does pain me to see my very own mother like this when I know that I am the reason for her hurting as she is no longer sleeping in the same room or house as my dad.

"Mum, I do not think I could do this to you any longer" I blurted out to my mum.

As my mum is still trying to completely comprehend what I am saying to her when she patted a seat for me to sit down on a chair that is next to her even though seeing my mother beautiful smile is beginning to diminish within seconds of her heart being torn apart in different fractions henceforth, I hand my mum a couple of paper napkins to help wiping of her tears stained face when she takes another sips of her favourite cherry wine similarly to her famous cherry pie.

"What are you talking about honey?"asked mum in bewilderment.

Hopefully, if I agree to sign those papers then we could all go back to the way that we would used to be a one big happy family, although I would highly doubt that everything else would ever go back to normal especially if my relationship with my father is unfixable because my dad horrible words he said to me himself still shattered me unto this day.

"I am talking about all of these heart breaks and suffering that I have been causing you by being too stubborn"I explained sadly to my mum.

My parents have both had love since they were seven years old without them actually knowing what the meaning of love was up until now,their love story has already been flourishing beautifully over several years of creating a wonderful family life together whereas, my brother and I are both prime example of our parents' love for each other.

"You are not stubborn however, you and your father can be strong willed at times which is why you are both always going head to head whenever you two do not want to agree on the same stuff"pointed out mum.

Primarily, I think I might had gotten my stubbornness from my dad meanwhile I get my kindness including my looks from my mum with her wavy long length ginger hair, brown eyes colour, my slightly above average height taller than most girls and my behaviour from my mum too.

Aunt Beverly my mum's sister once told me that my mother used to be a hardcore badass back in her teenaged years, she was a very beautiful woman who has always loved to fight for what she has believe in like a rebel.

"Never mind, being yet, I have this feeling deep inside of me also I want to help fix a broken relationship between both of my parents"I mumbled to my mum.

To begin with I could not stop blaming myself for putting a wedge into everyone else's relationship when I feel like I have done absolutely wrong by attempting to ruin my family happiness. Moreover, I could not even bear to hear my mum sniffing back her tears at night.

"Your father will always come around once he has finally started coming back to his senses"reasoned mum.

One of the most saddest smile I have ever seen my mum smile in decades when she is trying to put a cover girl smile on her face in addition to the huge bags that are under her eyes, I do not want mention it to her before she starts to give me a big nagging session about how she could always take care of her since she is always stating that she is the adult here, her and definitely not me.

"Are you seriously forgetting about dad being slightly a bit stubborn than me?" I said questionably to my mum.

There is still no doubt in my mind that my dad will ever change since I am his very difficult daughter who is forever going to be a disappointment to him.

"Yeah, but you do not have to worry about it because it is my responsibility to keep you safe and happy with a roof over your head"voiced my mum.

"I wanted to do what is best for you,mum"I said honestly to my mum.

A mother's love is unconditionally love as is perfectly described. My mother's love for my brother and I is always going to be here for us no matter what happens when we get into trouble or having a massive argument with each other.

This time my mum is wiping out tears from my eyes, making me realise how lucky I am to have a mum who is always willing to give up a fewer stuff for me just to keep me happy in life.

"Fine, just remember to do this for you furthermore, I hope you will find what you are seeking for and wanting is truly different than what you actually deserve in life"

Sometimes in life you always have to be willing to make sacrifices for those who you love even if it might hurt you or stopping you from being with someone else who you truly are in love with that one person who knows how to make all your pain feel like it is nothing, makes you smile, cry when you are getting a fuzzy warm feeling anytime you are around a certain person.

All of this talk has already made me think about telling him of my feelings towards including my arrange marriage to some floozy boy who I will soon betrothed to in the next two years even though it is going to hurt his heart as much as it does hurt mine , but yet I am still currently going ahead with it now for my family.

Perhaps I could just leave whoever is it a the altar of our wedding day for my one true love such as him, afterwards I walked out of the house to get inside a carriage to protect myself due to being too sensitive about my feelings in this situation for me to prevent me from flying by his house.

"I have some bad news to tell you right now" I uttered out loud.

Confessing to him when I saw another girl opening his front door it is the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach where my heart has drops in this moment for the first time I am not mad yet saddened by seeing this brown haired girl who is wearing a frilly pinks dress, although my heart hurts ten times harder than I would actually anticipated it to hurt henceforth maybe him being with this girl would numb his pain of heart breaks.

"Excuse me, who are you?"a brown haired girl asked me.

In my heart I just want to scream at her yelling that I am his girlfriend even though we were never really exclusive with each other, however I decided against it by not revealing who I really am to him as I begin to speak up after swallowing a most bittersweet pill.

"I am the girl who he is going to lose in any minute but now" I answered a brown haired girl.

I would hate to admit it but maybe my father was right to set me up with someone else who is in our fire tribe because it could be the only chance of me finding love and happiness even if it feels forced to me.

"What do you mean by that?"asked a brown haired girl confusedly.

A miserable smile is on my face trying not to break in front of his new things, I am still currently debating whether I want to kiss him for the last time or walks away from his house like nothing has ever happened between us. The latter one sounds like a more appealing idea to do instead of causing a scene where I argue with him about what our relationship is to him if he does that behind my back.

"Do not worry your shallow little mind, it is for him to understand and for you to tell him"I remarked to a brown haired girl- who might be his new girlfriend.

The truth in the end, no matter who you are falling for in your darkest moments, love will always find a way to suck all of your happiness out of you until it leaves you feeling all high and dry just like it had already done to me. It freaking hurts so much to see him happier without me even though I am happy for him.

I don't want to think about him right now as I slowly begin to start walking away from his house when I am finally done with love as well as hope.

Some people are not meant to be together , for example take him and i two different types of tribes from two different families where one is so happy being full with life whereas, the other one has to stop thinking about herself ,and also putting other people before her.

I am the girl who is always going to be heartbroken in this situation.

Now we are very close yet distant stranger again.