Inferno love| Mystical Love series#2

Chapter 21

Arden point of view

In all the disappointment I am currently undergoing in this world of pain, love and trust that I have never ever felt anything much like this before in my life as my heart is now completely shattered all over the floor again pretty as if it was a delicate piece of glass floating around me, nevertheless I think I just witnessed makes me feel so torn up right now also it does confirm my decision to do what is best for my family.

There is no feeling that is quite similar to heart break from trusting someone so much that they will betray the next day which is very unpredictable mixed with a unpleasant feeling of sadness in the pit of my stomach is a bittersweet mess of bottomless darkest days where I decided that I do deserve better than this,although there is no one else who knows me quite as well as he does therefore I think it is a shame to lose what we had in our relationship.

"I really do feel lost without him," I said sadly to Devine.

Is this how I really want to spend my Saturday night being stuck in my bedroom with tried tears stains on my face looking like a complete total train wreck to say the least is that love no longer ever exist anymore for me when I am finally able to be staring out of my window inside of my bedroom whilst watching the rain falling down out of the sky as I am emotionally withering away from being happy with life during finding pain in my misery to never be able to feel better than feeling like I am slowly turning numb.

"You will always find your own way back to being a strong version of yourself someday"assured Devine.

Someday, I do not know if tat someday will ever come because how could he honestly make me believe in loving life again when he does the despicable stuff behind my back or maybe I am just jumping to conclusions not even be slightly more sure of how to think correctly as the others are trying to convince me me that they must be a true story behind all this nonsense things they are hearing right now.

"When will that ever come?"I asked uncertainly to Devine.

My confidant is my blonde haired best friend Devin who is handing me a tub of ice cream to help get over my heartache from seeing Trixie wearing his shirt even though I still do have a high suspicion of her crushing so badly on him all the time when I am with him. She still has managed to butt in between our date night in addition to starting thinking she is doing this deliberately to sabotage our relationship to get him to be her boyfriend.

"Only time will tell for you to heal again"answered Devine.

They say that only time will help heal a broken heart when in the truth is time is so consuming within a matter of seconds or minutes I will feel more better than now, perhaps I might have to go on as normal as possible but we all know that my smile and my heart will never ever remain the same way for a long while, unfortunately the only people who I think won't betray me other than that my chosen family is myself moreover I am only as tougher than my problems.

"I am afraid that I will never be able to be that same girl anymore because she is long gone and buried in my past"I said to Devine with a sad frown.

My mum walked inside my room when she sees me, her wonderful daughter crying due to having a broken heart she sadly exhale at what happened to me as well as pulling into her loving embrace as I begin to start sobbing in her chest in the meantime she whispered softly reassuring words in my ears to try cheering by telling me a about my embarrassing childhood stories.

"Ohh my precious daughter, one day you will find yourself in the depths of your despair where there would be no sadness beyond your beating heart and soon beauty will come out of ashes"said reassuringly my mum.

Love hurts so much like I am internally bleeding from the inside as my heart has been ripped out of my chest in very crude details including the it also lifts up until you feel happy again and then next thing you know is that it steals every single lasts happiness you have deep inside of you with all that is left is a lifeless heart to a living coarse body.

"And now I know what it might have felt like when you had already chosen to leave dad for me"I mumbled to my mum.

My mum breathe to get composure over what she is going to say trying to keep strong when I mention dad to her as if she is not completely over how badly her marriage has went through so much pain infused with damage in the last couple of weeks she smile a painful smile however, shrug off it to be there for me by pushing past her own sadness to take care of me now.

"No, this is not the same thing because I chose to be with my little whilst the whole world was against you, I will always be for you, but any idiot who chooses another girl before you is the biggest dumbass that you ever met"explains my mum encouragingly.

No boy or boyfriend should ever have the satisfaction to make me feel worthless since I was perfectly fine with ignoring his existence before we had already met each other in that one night where we were bickering in front of our friends home, though I did not seem to be affected by him causing this heartache.

A lone wolf now is going to be easy for me to be since I was much better being alone all by myself to pick up my own pieces.

"You are the best mum ever"I said appreciatively to my mum.

Reminding myself that this book pain is only a part of the messy one chapter of my life to allow me to absorb all of my heart breaks to turn into a single badass girl who knows she can do so much more better than weeping her eyes out in her bedroom all night.

"Ohh, tell me something that I do not know about honey and enough about eating ice cream when we should be cheering to the horrible people who the universe has decided to go their own way as we will go our own way too"my mum said modestly to me.

A littlest senses of my suspicions are beginning to start tingling in my brain as it is to be able to fixes all of the pieces in the puzzle instead of spiralling out of control for not listening to my guts instinct I am just realising there must be a story or maybe a someone else who is behind all of this nonstop nonsense to stage such a cruel plan like this nonetheless I certainly sure it was Trixie.

"He is at the door for you,"said my brother angrily.

Wilson is standing outside my house in the pouring rain my heart is saying let him in on the to the other hand my head is telling to make him stay out there in the pouring rains ro freeze to death just like he did by making my heart turn frozen into ice while i watch him shivering in this cold weather in septembers even though i want to go back to summer where my sadness was fading away in the darkness.

"I hope it was your favourite crime because baby you were mine" I shouted out to him.

There is a tense in the past , present also a future in which i am now beginning to understands the reason of past tense in my life to show that everything in the past no longer exists or moving on to a greater time where i will be happier without a heartache , trust issues including wishing to hate him so much, nonetheless i know i could never hated him for giving me the time of my life to have good experience everywhere I go.

Unluckily, I am hoping that it does not come down to this point where I am even more hurt beyond words when I will never like this decision though because I am thinking about doing the most unthinkable things such as signing those papers off to get myself an agreement to arrange marriage.