Rammstein

Burning Bridges

I raised my head from my pillow in complete disbelief, just last night Till Lindemann asked me to be his.. And I turned him down.. I told him my plans on returning home instead of staying here after this vacation comes to an end, Though he didn't look hurt or saddened by it he looked determined. I figured he'd cut all ties after that.

I decided I'd get up a little early so I would definitely be on time for our class trip to the german colosseum, yay.. I simply put my hair in a ponytail and put an Blue Exorcist shirt on with regular skinny jeans and converses.. I looked soo... Typical. As I walked downstairs to catch breakfast I noticed Maddie was grinning ear to ear across the hallway, at least she made it home safe. "Well, well well.... If it isn't miss Avery" I stopped in my tracks and turned to face her " what Maddie?" She raised her brow "you can address me as mrs. Kruspe!" I rolled my eyes "your dating him not married to him... And you'll be lucky if I call you trash with all the crap you pulled yesterday" she flipped her hair "says the person who left an intoxicated helpless girl in a nightclub and left without her knowing..." That didn't even bother me anymore "well, given the fact you were giving a married man a lap dance and then forcing him to choose you over his wife and child! I don't think I was to much in the wrong here" finally I just took off and left. I'm not in the mood for this crap today.

I realized I had just left on a school trip... I'd be paying the price for it by mrs. Roberts later. I wasn't sure where I was going so I scrambled in my bag for my map. Hmm. My phones ringtone rang out "hello?" I forgot to check the caller id "hey Avery!" dad... "Hey dad! What's up?" He sighed "I need to tell you something.. It won't be pleasant to hear, especially now since you're on the other side of the planet" what? "O-Kay... I have to tell you something too. But you go first" there was a small pause "now I don't want to worry you when I say this but, me and your moms getting a divorce" HUH? I stopped frozen "Avery?" I gasped "what?! Why? Because I came to Germany? I'll come home right now, please don't divorce each other! I'm sorry! I shouldn't have came here!" I felt tears streaming down my cheeks as passer Byers stared at me "honey, calm down! It's okay! Relax... It was inevitable. We've actually been talking about it since you were twelve but we were waiting for you to turn eighteen and now... We're going through with it" my legs began to give out "no... Please" I begged to father "I'm sorry Avery, this is for the best for all of us. I hate to do this but I have to go, okay? I want you to have fun and if you want to talk you can call me or mom later today okay?" This can't be happening "okay.." I heard a smile come across his face "I love you darling, I'll call you later" this is really happening "okay, love you too.. Bye" oh no...

I caught my emotions all the way back to the hotel where the class hadn't left yet "AVERY FRIEDRICH! OVER HERE NOW!" I really don't need this right now mrs. Roberts. "I wiped my tears away but more unconsciously fell "where were you?! We've been waiting and waiting, we finally canceled the trip and was about to contact the authorities! It's very unlike you to-" she stopped when she looked into my tear stained eyes "Avery? Are you okay?" I nodded and wiped my nose with my hand "I-I got a call from m-my dad.. He and my mom are getting a-a divorce.." I huffed out as more tears streamed down my face "aww honey! Come here! It's okay, you're forgiven for skipping out today. Go on to your room and rest a while" I nodded and turned walking away noticing everyone's eyes directly on me...

As I got to my room and plopped on my bed I sobbed into the fresh linen sheets. What will I do now? How can I go home to mom and dad while they're divorcing?! This really is all my fault.. 'Knock, knock' I ignored the Knocks on the door and continued to sob until the door opened "you should seriously lock your door..." Maddie... I don't want to deal with her right now... "Woah.. Ave, are you okay?" I sat up and shook my head "what's wrong?" She hurried over to the bed and crawled onto the bed to sit beside me pulling me into a side hug.. I know I'm mad at her but at a time like this.... I need someone, anyone. "My parents are getting a divorce.. It's all my fault too" her face dropped instantly "oh god, Avery I'm sorry" she began patting my back "I hate to pry especially right now, but what the hell did you do that was so bad to get them divorced? I just don't believe you're the cause" I shrugged "they got into a huge fight about me coming here... If I wouldn't have they wouldn't have fought like they did" Maddie shook her head "no, no... That's not what split them up... Avery I hate to say this but I've actually been expecting them to break up since I've met you.... I'm not trying to be mean or anything but they just seemed to have a love hate relationship.. Only with more hate, ya know?" Maybe she's right... I'm not sure what I'm going to do anymore.. Ugh.