Rammstein

Saying Goodbye

~ginormous time skip <3~

It was finally time to go home.. It was about time! I decided to just go home and not turn back, if anything this trip was a waste and unwanted curse. I constantly received texts from Till wanting to know why I was ignoring him.. He even showed up at the hotel, but I told Maddie to get rid of him. As much as I hate being mean.. Well, this just needed to happen. We live in two totally different worlds and they shouldn't collide.. They can't! Later when she returned she was smiling "it's all taken care of, I will warn you he was kinda devistated... He wanted to see you, ya know? But don't push yourself if you don't think you can do it" I shuddered "let's go home Maddie" I grabbed the handle to my suitcase and began walking out, I wasn't only walking out on Germany but I was walking out on Till as well.. Our worlds were just to... Different and I had my own issues to deal with. This german trip turned out to be a mistake, I realize that. I fought long and hard to be able to come here to only have it thrown back in my face now.. Perhaps I wouldn't feel as heartbroken for Till if I wouldn't have become close to him.. Maybe Maddie and I would have never have been falling out? It's honestly hard to tell but this is what I'm doing for me.

As I exited the hotel and put my bags into the bus I felt an arm wrap around my waist "Hey!" I yelled when I turned around I seen Till "till.. I.." I couldn't say anything... There was nothing to say. "Don't speak just listen! You've been ignoring my calls and texts so you can at least talk to me!" I shook my head "what happened to us?" That got to me.. "Us?! Us?! What us?! There is no us! It's only you! Now I'm going home to America, forget my number and forget I even existed" I was being harsh I know... "No! I can't! And I won't.. Avery, what's it going to take to tell you I love you?" Love?! "How could you love me Till?! I'm screwed up! And I screw up everything else to! I ruined my parents marriage and I ruined my friendships and let's not forget I ruined Ivy and Berlynn's life!" Till looked shocked but managed to question further "how'd you ruin Ivy and Berlynn's life?" I snorted but I felt my eyes sting "if I wouldn't have told Ivy about Richard they wouldn't have separated, it was all my fault..." He shook his head rapidly "no, if anyone ruined Richard and Ivy's relationship it was Richard. Everyone knows how he is..even Ivy, it's not like it's a first time he's left her ya know?" He's such a scumbag "but even then, till I can't be with you!" I had to advert my eyes from his because I seen the strong hurt within them "why?!" I sighed "you're..a famous musician... I'm just a girl from America, trust me it'll never work. Plus, there's a huge age gap" he threw his hands up "fine! Then I'm done! I'm done pursuing you! Don't call or text me with your regrets later!" I was stunned with his deep rude voice as he walked back to his car. There I went and ruined a friendship...

I stood on the sidewalk stunned.. Did that really just happen? "Avery! On the bus now!" Through my sorrowful whining I didn't even here mrs.Roberts call me towards the bus "coming!" I yelled, why am I feeling so down? This is what I wanted.. But now I feel... Date I say hurt? Perhaps I really did have feelings for Till... To bad it's too late now.