Mileven One shots <33

"I have to go"

They are like 18/19 in this so a bit older.
Oh and this is still just mostly angst.
Sorry to make it sad but I feel like doing it.
Enjoyyy :)
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Mike intertwined his warm hands with El's,protecting them from the biting cold wind like a shield.

"You know I never thought we'd make it this far,"he said looking down at his girlfriend who still had her eyes glued to the path in front of them.

"Me too,"she admitted.

"I mean...it sounds like we're talking over 50 years but we aren't.We've been through so much,it seems like an eternity when it just been around 7 years,"he chuckled lightly earning a smile from El.

"It might have been 7 years for you
but it's been my whole life for me,"she sighed and kicked a rock that was in her way.

She smiled meekly at the boy who had a sad expression on his face."Oh come on,I'm over that now,its not even that...bad anymore,"she giggled,his frown still not going away.

"It might not be that bad for you but it still is for me.There's always this part of me that is scared that I'll wake up to you screaming because of a dream that you had which was caused by your past.I honestly don't think you know how much it killed me on the inside,seeing you in pain like that.Even now,though your nightmares are less frequent they still happen and I wish that one day they'll stop,that you can live a care free life but my wish never comes true.I will never forgive them for ruining your chances at being fully happy,"he whispered,holding back the tears that had began choking him.

"Why do you care so much about my past,it's not like it happened to you?"she still spoke lightly,though anger laced her words.

"Because guess what El,when you love someone you care for them,you care about everything.Even if it includes their past.
And I love you,I love you so,so much that's why I will never forget about what they did to you,"tears spilled down his frozen cheeks but he wiped them in a quick swipe.

"Mike,"she stood in front of him,holding both his hands in hers,they weren't protecting her from the wind or the cold night air anymore though,"I will never forgive myself for making you a part of my life because I now know that you feel all the pain I feel and just like you,i feel heartbroken knowing that I cursed you with this life."She swallowed,tears welling in her eyes.

She stepped a bit closer to him before continuing,"Every time you see me cry because of a flash back its not because of how scary it is but because I know I'm a burden.I've been one my whole life,"her hands trembled in his.

"Thats not true El,You're not a burden at all!Stop saying that!"he raised his voice at her.

"Unfortunately it is true,no matter how much you deny it,I know it's true,that's why..,"she trailed off.

"That's why what?"his voice began to grow louder,"that's why what El?!"

"We can't see each other,"she sobbed,lightly letting go of his hands,"it would've been better if I just died like I was meant to."

"What the fuck El,"Mike was now crying,the warm tears turning his cheeks back into their usual pink colour.

He pulled her into an embrace,she tried squirming out of his hold but didn't argue with him.

"No,"she finally said,"I can't do this."

She stepped away before turning back and closed the gap between her and Mike.Her lips pressed against his,both of them freezing cold,not getting any warmer,"I have to go."

Slowly she stepped away from him,turning to look at him one last time.
One..two..three steps forward she counted in her head.Four...five..six.She'd walked that much without looking at him.
It was for the better,they both knew it somewhere...deep...deep down.

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Idk why I made this so sad :(
I usually don't write stuff this sad but anyways.
Hope u guys are doing great and thank you

-Ally :)