Finding My Person and My Reason

Chapter 5: Sad memories and bonding

I'm so confused, why does he care? What does he want from me? I look up to him to respond when I notice he 's looking at the bruise.

"Who did that to you?" He asks why clenching his jaw together so hard you can see the veins in his neck.

"What does it matter, nobody cares. Nobody ever notices me or cares about me, nobody has ever cared. So why are you caring now, you didn't notice me until last night so what does it matter to you?" he looks shocked at my little outburst.

"Your parents care abou.." that's all he could get out when I interrupted him,

"Really my parents care, ask yourself why I hardly talked last night. Ask yourself why I have a handprint on my face today when I didn't have one last night."

I can't believe he actually thought my parents cared about me.

"Last night they seemed like they really loved you." I can't believe the nerve he has.

"Whatever believe me or not I don't care, just know I tried telling you. You asked why I said I am a nobody, well that's because I am told that every single morning and day. My father loves to brittle those who are already broken. I have no friends because of him, I have a bruise on my face because today I grew tired of his mouth."

With that I get up to leave.

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After school finally ended I walked home. Great not only did I spill my guts to someone, but he also now knows one of my deep secrets. I walk into the house with mom in the kitchen. That's a first she's never in the kitchen. I walk up to her to stop whatever she is doing because I know I will get hit again if dad sees she's having to cook instead of me.

" Honey, go sit down and do your homework if you have some, if not then relax" wow she's actually being nice to me.

" Mother I have to do it if father sees me doing nothing he will think I am making you and be ungrateful...." She turns to me with a sad face.

"Darling, I am so so sorry for everything he has done, I know you don't believe me since I just sat back and let it happen. But when he hit you this morning it all hit me, please forgive me. I should've been a better mom to you. Starting today I will be, and don't worry about your father let me deal with him. If he knows what's best for him he will leave you alone."

I walked to her and hugged her. I know I shouldn't forgive her so easily, but she is my mother. I'm just glad she is stepping up to be more. It might have taken her 16 years, but I don't care. I only care that I have my mom now.

Mom fixed me dinner and we sat and talked. She kept apologizing for the years that she just sat back and watched. She told me she was going to make things right and I believe her. Something in her eyes just told me. I went to my room and noticed it actually looks like a room should. I have a nice bed and a dresser full of my clothes. Wow mom was right she really is trying. I run and jump on the bed ( I know what 16 year old jumps on her bed, well I do since this is a new bed and the first nice one I have.)

After my shower I brush my hair and climb into bed just to receive 2 new messages.

First message

UNKNOWN NUMBER: Listen hear slut leave Alexande alone I mean it. You wouldn't want things to get ugly now would you?!

I block the number. I don't really care whoever it is. I move on to the second message.

A: I am sorry if I offended you in the library, I didn't mean to. Please forgive me, and is it your dad who is hurting you?

A: Please answer, I need to know your ok and you forgive me.

A: Please, you can trust me.

He wants me to trust him, really after he didn't believe me. Really I don't know what to do. I wanna trust him,but I've been hurt too many times. Here goes nothing

H: Fine, im ok my mom is actually being nice and making up for everything, and yes it was my father. I might forgive you I don't know. You will have to earn my trust. I don't just give that out.

A: I understand, I'm glad your mom is stepping up, your dad needs to pay for hitting something so pretty. Starting tomorrow I will start earning your trust you will see. Goodnight Hope, have beautiful dreams, if you ever need me I am there.

H: Thank you and sleep well yourself. I guess I will see you tomorrow goodnight.

With that I log off and go to bed. WAIT DID HE JUST SAY PRETTY ME, he must be high because I am anything but that. After thinking that sleep hits me like a freight train.