My Seven Deadly Sins

🍬 A World Without You - Belphegor x Y/N

Playlist: DaniLeigh - Easy (unplugged)

"If only dying means that I get to be with you forever," I hold out my hand to reach for Belphegor's hair that glints like the murky night sky. "I wish I'd just die!"

His eyelids flutter open while I was leaving trails of my fingertips along the side of his face.

"Why would you say something like that?" his voice is still heavy from the sleep. Did I wake him up?

"What?" as I say while I turn around and lay on my back, facing the attic's dusty ceiling. "It's true! Do you even know why I'm afraid of death in the first place?"

"Can we not talk about anything gloomy during my nap hours?" Belphie turns around, exposing his back completely to me.

"I'm sorry," I seal my lips tighter not feeling the slightest of guilt.

The deafening silence takes over once again. I thought he was already asleep, but then he continues. "I didn't know you have Thanatophobia."

"I don't," I chuckle.

I can see that today this youngest of seven demons beside me has decided to spend his precious time to converse with me. I love that he is curious about things, especially the things I also love to talk about.

"Then what did you mean by fear of death?" he already rolled over to face me, scooting closer to my body.

It's about time to fill in the gap that separated us from each other, "I'm more afraid of the unknown than death itself."

His eyes shine brightly with question marks and a peaking interest reflecting on both his pupils. The look on his face tells me to go on with my explanation, so I proceed with it.

"Nobody knows where you go after you die or what you'll become. I don't want to be an intangible being, lingering around in nothingness. Especially, I don't like having the idea that I can't touch you or that you can't even feel me.

What if I become a ghost, and I don't even remember who you are? What if all those times we've spent together just disappear from my memory? That's why I'm scared of death."

I think Belphie has stopped breathing sometime ago during my long monologue. The sullen in his face is telling me that he still need more explanations, so I keep talking.

"You do realize that I'm only a human, right?" I brush his thin warm lips with my thumb. I have to grit my teeth to push down the urge not to kiss him.

"Yeah, but you're my human!" he reaches for my hand that is still stroking his bottom lip and kisses my palm softly.

I quickly regret this conversation that I initiated first, knowing where it will lead our moods to. "Humans age much faster than Demons, I'm sure you know that already. I also have no idea for how long you've been looking this age?! You might look like a normal 18 year old in human age while I'd be all wrinkly like a prune!"

"What's your point?" he narrows both his eyes on me.

"Nothing," I quickly laugh to cover the awkwardness in me. "I'm sorry for saying depressing things and ruining your nap. I just... had a lot in my mind. Let's just go back to sleep!" I push myself forward and kiss him on his forehead before huddling closer to him. I love burying myself in his neck. His smell always calms my nerves, and he is very warm and soft!

The next three days after our last conversation, Belphegor seems to appear a bit down in the dumps. It's also so obvious that he's trying to avoid me as much as he can. One time, I tried to follow him everywhere he went, but he snapped at me and told me to go away.