𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑚𝑖 𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑟 - 𝑏. 𝑟𝑜𝑑𝑟𝑖𝑔𝑢𝑒𝑧 (2)

iv

benny's pov:

a week as past and i still haven't told dylan about the kiss. we've been talking every day. she told me about a new neighbor that moved into my old house. i've distanced myself from lily. the only time i'm with her is when we're playing baseball with all the guys.

ever since she kissed me it's been awkward. she would always try and come over to me. she would always show up at my house. when i told my mom not to let her in she was hesitant. that was until i told her what happened that one night. my mom told me that i should tell dylan but it's already been a week. if i tell her now she'll be even more pissed.

im supposed to be at the ball field playing with the guys and lily but in all honesty i really didn't feel like playing right now. there was a party tonight which is cool i guess. i don't really feel like going but the guys are forcing me. if i were back home in california i would be holding dylan in my arms, or hanging out with the boys in the tree house, or i'd be scamming pool honies. i miss home so much it hurts. on top on that when i think of dylan i feel guilt fill my entire body. i heard mt phone buzz. it was the guys group chat telling me they were outside. i put my phone in my back pocket and snuck out my window. once my feet hit the ground we were on our way.

we arrived at this huge house. you could hear the music a block away. kids were on the front yard drinking, making out, or dancing. i tensed up at the stench of alcohol filling my nose. i felt a pair hands on my shoulder. the hands belonged to liam. him and i grew close in this past week. we all went inside the mansion. "i'll be right back. im gonna get everybody a drink." liam shouted over the blasting music. i was gonna tell him i didn't want a drink but he already wandered off.

"benny, can we talk?" i heard lily say looking up at me. she was quite short, well shorter than dylan. i shook my head about to tell her no but liam came back with the drinks. i took the cup hesitantly.

"i don't drink." i said looking into the cup. all of them just laughed, including lily. i frowned at their reaction. i want them to like me, but i don't wanna drink.

"don't be a pussy, benny man." liam said taking a sip of his drink. i sighed as i lifted the cup to my lips. alcohol filling my nostrils. i tilted the cup back, the liquid filling my mouth. i swallowed it, it burned my thoat. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, it wasn't good, but it wasn't bad. they all cheered for me as i took another swig of the drink.

who knows how much time had passed. all i know was that i was drunk. like really drunk. i was dancing with someone. i think it's lily but i'm not completely sure. it had to be her. it was a really short blonde girl. i clearly had enough to drink. the girl looked up at me. if i'm correct she was leaning in to kiss me. i couldn't stop myself from leaning in as well. our lips met moving in sync. i know i have a girlfriend but i couldn't bring myself to move away. we were full blown making out when i saw a flash out of the corner of my eye. i pulled away immediately.  i looked over to where the flash came from to see liam and all the guys smirking. liam was holding his phone. this wasn't good. i felt my face drop. i felt myself sober up immediately. laim knew about dylan. shit shit shit. i pushed lily away from me. i walked right up to liam. "dude, you got to delete that. like now." i yelled over the music. liam just shook his head and ran away from me. i chased after him but even though i felt sober i clearly wasn't. i couldn't walk straight, let alone run.

i found my way home, somehow. i climbed through my window almost falling twice. i flopped down on my bed. my head was pounding. i let the tears spill from my eyes. how could i do this to dylan. fuck i hate myself for doing that. i have to tell he before liam sends her that picture. i have to make things right. i just have to.

a/n : i fucking hate benny so much right now and i'm the one who wrote it. anyway thank you for reading lovelies. don't forget to vote ;D. i love you all.

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